BEAUTIFIED PRINCESS x. FEAT. Miss Beauty Queen.

Thursday, May 31

2:23 PM

; kiss me goodnight

nd i know this much is true.
baby, you have become my addiction.
i’m so strung out on you i can barely move,
but i'm liking it.. ;nd it's all because of you

// 280507 monday

one paper down.
-throw eggs at cambridge

let's not talk about cheena chinese.
it's off my mind.. at least for th next few months.

went t daphne's place t chill.
bought food nd dessert. >;DDD
i love cold dessert, it turns me on.
HAHAHA YAYAYA!

okk we watched all sorts of video.
saw all th old photos when we were
younger.. omgoodness, it brought
back so many memories. some in which,
we wished it never came back, but others,
we wished we held it forever. >:s

ohoh! i must say daphne's bunny is
darn cute. haha. i love ~~his~~ her
beeeeg feeet. omgoodness -rubs.

left w honey around 5 odd.
was darn tired nd lethargic.
went home, had an argument w parents.
dont wanna talk about it. >:/

headed t 4/3's chalet.
my parents drove me there.
met emilia at th playground.
bbq, food, teevee, drinks, games.
hahaha i must say emilia suck at drinking.
she was tipsy from 1/4 of those plastic cup.
laugh out loud, how silly. (:

okk, while i was bathing, i heard alot
of running nd screaming downstairs.
suddenly i heard someone say, "victoria still bathing!"
then emilia came up nd asked me t come out.

me : "EH wheres th hairdryer ?!"
emilia : you hurry come out nd hear then
you dont wanna use hairdryer already!
me : O.O -eyes wide open omg ?! wth.

so i hurried down, t find everyone sitting
in a circle, curtains all closed nd even asked
me t lock th door. then tabitha ong suddenly
told us some creepy thing that went on outside.
we started t scare ourselves. urghh >;/
i was at th verge of crying seriously. so i kept
really really quiet. i was shaking on th inside.

rachel tan wanted t go for nightwalk.
so we left th chalet. haha everyone was
so scared till nobody even dared t remove th
chalet card so i did. >;/ okk so we started t walk.
till we reached th starting of changi beach.
tabitha tan started t cry cos she didnt wanna go.
so we stopped nd stood at th road. i know i was
quiet, seriously i didnt dare t move or speak ha.
this girl came beside me nd hook my arm.

her : i think i should hold victoria.
she's so quiet. so stable, i feel safer.
me : -looks down at her.. hmm ? -grins. :/
priya : you never know! later she suddenly scream.
me : eh. -smirks >:/

DAMN LOL. i was laughing inside. >;x
i was dead scared, infact i bet more scared
than any of them. HAHAHAHA. i was trying
t shut up incase i over-react. -grinssss

in th end, we headed back t chalet.
roamed around th poolside, headed back
t chalet. it was lik close t 2am. we played
all sorts of game. from truth nd dare, t
heart attack. haha it was time-flying games.
i was already 70% asleep. darn, i was so tired.
i sat there when everyone was laughing at
rachel tan. she was dead funny! >:DDD

i didnt realise, but i kept talking halfway
nd dozing off into sleep that everyone
started t laugh at me. nd they played prank
on me which scared me okk. i thought who
tapped me la. what friend, boy. nono not at night.
hahaha. so priya accompanied me up t my
room t sleep. emilia was already sleeping
lik a pig. yeap i repeat, a pig. (:

so yes, i was happy t settle down on a
comfy bed. lik finally, i was sooo tired.
ohoh nd of all times when my energy level
is lik 0.0000001%, emilia had t pull a
pillow fight w me. seriously. cos' my pillow was
more solid nd firm nd nicer t sleep on.
so yes, in th end, i lost la.. as usual.
so i slept w no pillow -.-" BUTBUT! i will
get a flu if i dont have anything under my
head, so she was nice enough t put her arm
below. HAHA. she rather get a numb arm
than give me back my pillow. great. >:DD

i remember sleeping at close t 330am.
BUT emilia lau kept hitting me. i promise,
i was gonna get a swollen puffy cheek if
she didnt stop lol. all she did was laugh nd
play more. -.- she's high at night i know.
im a dead bummer at night LOL. urghhh.
i kept defending until i was tired nd drifted
off t sleep... (i think arnd 4+)

after that, i remember getting up now nd then.
BUT WAS IT A DREAM ?!?!?!?!
HELLLOOOOO, SOMEONE TELL ME.

my heart was dead fast.
i could practically hear it beating! >;x
i could even feel it popping out of my chest.
as much as i wished it wasnt a dream,
it's a moment t remember forever.

..............

-sings last night..
SERIOUSLY. urghh, i'm always
going gagagagagaguguguggagaga
when i think about it. >;x

anyways, i was half asleep by then.
so everything i think i remember,
i dont know if its a dream or anything.
so yeah, here's what i remembered/dreamt.
tabitha ong came in t sleep w us. she was
so cute, all scared nd everything. i was so
tired, i didnt answer her much. i was lik dead.

woke up lik 2 hours later. damn.
it felt lik so long but it wasn't.
i was so tired. nd emilia woke up too.

emilia : did you hear any noise last night ?
me : YA! OMGGGGGOMGOMGSS.

then we started ranting about it.
nd i was so scared okk. i decided t try
t sleep again but when emilia left th room,
my hair stood up, i ran out of th room.
urghh, well i heard th cupboard opening
alot of times. i heard footsteps of people
walking infront of th bed. i heard those
washing board scrubbing, i even thought
i saw flashes of light. i thought people
thinking photo okk. nd i heard alot alot
of running footsteps from outside, which
i thought was th rest of th girls who didnt
sleep nd i heard my door opening a couple
of times but when i open my eyes, there
was none of this happening. i even heard
knocking of th wall behind us, nd under
th bed. OKAY ENOUGH. damnit.
i was so scared, it was about t pee in my panties.
okk, so i asked emilia t hurry wake up nd follow me.

she went t wash up. i went down, saw most of them
sleeping on th living room floor w sofa pillow. ahh.
so i decided t get comfy on this wooden chair.
crouch on th chair nd slept. but mischievous emilia
came down nd hit my head again. okk so i woke up.
but dozed off again, until th teevee was on. so i moved
t th sofa, watching mtv, i slept again. HAHAHA.
i woke up after 30 min. played mahjong.
tabitha tan's mum came. yeap so we cleaned up nd
packed our stuff. soon, everyone called cab nd left.
emilia nd i headed t th bowling alley t eat.

hahaha then we headed t this wireless comfy
place. i slept there, hahaha as usual. nd we played
this prank on tabitha-t. we saw her from afar.
afterwhich, we called for cab around 1odd.
headed t tanah merah. i didnt had anything t eat
since i got up. so i was dead hungry nd gastric-pron.
so we took train t pasir ris.

emilia : eh, i wanna sleep leh. take t boon lay.
me : EH, really ard ? ok.

HAHA nd true enough, we did.
i thought she was lying but no.
th both of us slept through th 1 hour journey.
she kept dozing off damn badly. haha.
i was trying so hard t lift her head nd this
girl was lik smiling at me. it must have been funny!

we reached boon lay. i was lik, EH SO FAST LEH!
hahaha, i was gastric-y already so we decided
t go t jurong point t eat. geez, i miss that place.
brings back all those memories when city harvest
was at jurong west.. >)): okk had SUBWAY YO!
yay, it rocks. poor emilia was sick again. aye.

walked around, finding my shoe.
afterwhich, went back t our 1-hour journey.

me : are you gonna sleep again ?
emilia : nopes -shakes head

ND soon enough, POM! th both of us dozed off.
hahahaa. ok nd pasir ris seemed lik 10 min ride.
headed home. nd for th FIRST time this year,
i had my afternoon nap. (please clap for me)

HAHA it lasted three hours.
i used t have afternoon naps but
since last year, i kept going out nd
im not home most of th time so yeap.
i sleep easily when im outside. (:

well, it's sleepy day.
here goes my two days at chalet.
it's a fun nd memorable one. -grinnnss

// 300507 wednesday

went t school for accounts nd ss class.
i was dead late. >:/ okk it was fun t be
in denise nd nicole's group. they kept
making fun of me. but it was really funny!
love those two monkeys. ;x -laughs!

after class, mable honey headed t my house.
we went lp first t buy our ingredients.
headed t my house, enjoyed our yogurt bubble
tea haha. made pancakes nd jelly! >:DD
yay it was so fun. my honey rocks.
she knows everything. i know nuts about kitchen.

walked her t th bus stop after.
dozed off on my comp. -.-"
was chatting w a junior nd heard so
much about some stuff which makes
me wanna laugh/run away.

// 310507 thursday

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE. >;DD happy vesak day.

honey was supposed t come over.
but since my family was home.. yeah.
did some chores for mummy today.
-pat my back. hahaha.

now im idling around, nothing t do.
i'm going t church later. yay emerge!
well, i missed this morning's service >;/
okk, imissyouimissyouimissyouimissyou.

suddenly, i heard this song 'these words'
on th radio last night. haha. it brings back
old times again. friends nd everything.
i'm gonna miss my high school life, seriously.

goodbye everyone.
sorry for my long naggy post.
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou.

Sunday, May 27

10:25 PM

; 'd you find my way back into love;

// 250507

TGIFFFF!
BUTBUTBUT, its also th holidays!

started out w ikea. yes.
met emilia at west plaza.
she was super sickk, poor girl.

we went t her house t close window.
went t ikea, giant nd courts. i was
glued t courts. played th xbox there
while she slept nd laughed at me
losing nd crashing. hahaha. i always
always go there t play free xbox ok.
i know im cheapo la, but i really wanna
play unless someone nicely invite me over!
>:DDDDD -beeeeg grinsss

sat outside ikea for very very long
since she said she was very cold in giant.
she was scaring th wits outta me. seriously.
im scared when people gets sick when i'm
out w them. so we sat there, went up t ikea
t buy my ice cream. sat alittle longer nd went
off. yeap..

went t town t meet my honey.
our date was hot. hawwwwtt inddeeed.
ndndnd! something damn funny happened
at HMV OKAY. lol. >;x

mable was finding her artist. so i helped.
i was screening for lily allen.. ND ACTUALLY,
i saw it but i dont know why my eyes reject it.
so when mable came over t find, i was like..
"no la, dont have dont have!" -points at th
names.. "you see, linkin park.. lilac.. lily allen.. li.."
then mable screamed "LILY ALLEN!" then i was
lik, "eh, OMGOMG LILY LILY!!!"

HAHAHA. we started screaming lik mad people.
it was super funny okk. hahahaha. we had
wanton noodles, i met my nice friend dianaaaa.
&she said i gave her th wth-you-doing-here face HA!
walked around nd stuff nd home sweet home.
great hot date, i need t date my girl again. >:DD
&ohya! we enjoyed this yummy sweet for th day.

P.S. MARS BARS ARE DELICIOUS! ;pppp

// 260507

attempted t study chinese in th morning.
went t airport. burgerking. why not burgerqueen.
HAHAH okay whatever. >:x

headed t sentosa w diana yo'
cabbed in cos th monorail was lik #!@$%@^%*
okk, she rent th bike. i brought my blades.
we cycled/bladed around lol. i tell you, th
jungle trail was badddd but egg-citing & fun.
th floor was slippery wet, i was looking damn
awkward w my legs together cos i didnt have
any brakes haha. we were all lik comparing how
many mosq'bites w got t see whose blood's sweeter.
we tied la. HAHA i had 4 bites at one small spot.

we moved from th trail t th beaches nd t tanjong.
HAHA we went quite far. eh, we rest at th bus stop.
ndndnd you know, i saw th clouds approaching..
>;/ urghh okk so we rushed back. but too late.
it poured on us. so she asked me t wait at this hut
nd she went t return her bike. so i took off my blades
nd walked under th rain in sandals. HAHA you know
how much i hate being caught in th rain. but i was
already sweaty nd sticky so yeah. met her at th
toilet. we wanted t bathe but too crowded. so we
did uncivilized washing-up at th sink. dipping our
legs inside nd stuff. hahahaha.

okk, walked up t this pretty nice thing.
it brought us t imbiah lookout. (:
it's darnn nice, yo! caught a few photos.
we were lik little kidss hahaha. EH. here..

ok we went subway after that.
our love, finally okk. i was starving.
oh yes, we took this leaflet from th train
so we had this buddy meal thingy. ahaha.

bitching nd eating. haha. good combo.
roamed around, headed t th monorail.
went t vivo. walked around, finding her
bag nd stuff. hahaha. she showed me
this magic trick, omgoodneesss..

MAGIC MAN. i was lik "eeeeeeee!"
i mean, its lik magic. im not kidding.
scares me somehow hahaha.

headed home sweet home.
((:

// 270507

went t church. i was late >:/
was sitting alone until jeremy called
me for seat. so yeapp. service was good.
always a good time t refresh myself from
th horrible week i had. urghh -growls

went t yishun t meet ryan.
supposed t go for th euro fair.
but decided not. yeap yeap.
met wilson lol. surprise surprise.
ate kfc. chicken drums. (:
went t th arcade t play. hahaha.
i was say this thai game was damn cool.

headed over t ryan's.
played some rugby game.
i'm sooo gonna join touch-rugby man.
its lik so fun ? HAHA. okkk. nd played
this ball-y game hahaha. had waffles.
ryan did a damn scandalous thing..
chasing th door of th lift until he found
out it was full.. i betcha he was disappointed!
went home after. super tired.

tmr is chinese o's.
yeap just kill me.
i dont even wanna take it at th hospital.
HAHAHAHA.

goodbye world.
if only i meant th world t you;

Friday, May 25

10:55 AM

HOLIDAYS ARE HEREEEEE
;DDDD

i'm already planning my holidays.

{250507 friday}
# emilia at west plaza; 1145am
# ikea; 1230pm
# mable at town; 3pm

{260507 saturday}
# ~~tuition; 12pm~~
# airport; 12pm
# sentosa; 2pm

{270507 sunday}
# church; 10am
# ~~ferris wheel; 2pm~~
# ~~town; 5pm~~
# north point

{280507 monday}
# CHEENA O'LEVELS; 0730am
# chalet; overnight

{290507 tuesday}
# chalet again.
# tutorial
# back t chalet; oot

{300507 wednesday}
# tutorial
# __________ ; open for bookings

{thursday - sunday}
# mable honey's baking over at my place
# tutorials
# EMERGE ;DDDD (hilda, interested ?)

.
haha okk, that's all i'm gonna post for now.
i'll update you guys more of my holiday plans.
bookings are available >:ppp

&of course, i will include study, somehow.
EHEHEHEH, MUCH LOVES T ALLL &&
ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAYS, ESP W ME ;DDD

*last updated : 26 May 07

Wednesday, May 23

10:29 PM

; H.A.M.Y

The Bottom Line

Secrets are meant for keeping,
but recognize that very few stay kept forever.

In Detail

Very few secrets stay secrets forever.
Today you might realize that the time
has come to share a secret you've been
keeping for a while. It may be a bit of
especially juicy gossip, or it may be a
personal secret that you're suddenly dying
to reveal -- as long as revealing it doesn't
hurt anyone or get anyone in trouble, go for it.
You might want to make sure that you tell someone
who has an interesting secret to tell you in return.

xoxo,
that's my oh-so-true horoscope for today.
(you know i dont believe in such thing..)
BUTBUTBUT! today is an exception! >;DD
it's confession day today tooooo.
so, two thumbs up for today's horoscope.

i love david beckham & victoria beckham.
woohoooo. HOTHOTHOT >;ppp

EH, HAPPY HAPPY 23RD YO! ;DDD

.
urghh so screwed up.
parent's meeting on friday. haha.
save me someone >)): -screeeaams!
olevels' a killer, killing all of us. blaah.

OHH. ND YOU KNOW,
I STAINED MY BLOODY SKIRT TODAY.
OMGOMGSSSSZZXXXZXZXZ >:/
TWICE A MONTH, LAUGH OUT LOUD.

my cheena teacher, lee laoshi rocks okk! :DD
omgoodness, she treated us t apple crumble
after school. haha i ate until so happy laaa.
i was smiling all th way, i could afford a tear ok!
i was sweet talking w my laoshi as much as i could.
(as you know, i got limited vocab) HAHAHA. >:x

then mable nd i had t leave early.
so i was so grateful, i offered a hug.
she was so cute okkk.

me : mrs chong! can i hug you ?
mrs chong : wo de shou hen zhang -shows me
me : EH.. (shows th :/ face) ummm.. nvm la!
mrs chong : (in cheena) you hug me frm behind la.
me : ORHH. -HUGGGSSS.

NDNDND! th funny thing was when i hugged her,
she started t flabbed her arms. lol it was so cute
nd funny, i couldnt stop laughing. hahahaha! ((:
well, i really wanna pass chinese for her.
but im afraid i might not be able t.. >)): -frowns

went t accompany emilia cut hair w vanjil
opposite school. alicia, rena, tabitha nd cherie
was there too. haha i had indian hair on me okk.
-___- eh her hair was kinda short but IT WILL GROW.
hahaha went t whitesands, had lunch.
walked around, hung out at th library.
i dozed off until i got picked on. lol.
went t buy waffles, suddenly her mama met us.
home sweet home. :DDD
tmr is last day of school, dammmmnn.
chinese o'level is on monday.
i can't wait for th chalettttt! >:DD

goodnights, peepios (:

Monday, May 21

9:26 PM

; you know i want you; imy

// 180507
happy birthday, kervon nd kaevis!

met my honey mable at pasir ris inter.
took bus t downtown nd walked t chalet.
eh, talked about ghost stories nd stuff.
mable got freaked out by my phone vibration.
it was funny, i wished i took a photo of her reaction.
;DD -laughs!

mable nd i ate lik hungry ghosts. haha.
seriously, we were starving hahaha.
went inside nd watch teevee, enjoy aircon.
th little boy there was annoying everyone.
he's... (let's just say) worst than my brother.
urghh, seriously. good gracious! hahaha!

drank, th birthday twins did their dares.
it was darn funny. take a look ---

anyways, played around. cam-whore.
got giddy suddenly. didnt want t go
out of hand again nd high, so i remained quiet
&i lost my earring >:/ went home at 12+

// 190507

went for tuition. conrad was darn late.
he was all so formally dressed up.
everyone thought he had dinner or sth. -.-
after tuition, bought jollybean,
went t siglap's starbucks. met his friends there.
ate heart-melting eclair. >;DD it rocks.

afterwhich, went t church. hahaha.
got seat for jeremy seow again.
this week, we had good seats. yay!
service was great. superb as usual. (:

after service, went t dhoby ghaut alone.
bought McVities, my favourite.
at 10+, met emilia, tabitha nd alicia.
went home together. we were all tired.

// 200507

went t piano teacher's house t pay her.
afterwhich, headed t woodlands. haha.
met ryanie, headed t eat his lunch.
went t woodlands library t study. HAHA.
believe it or not, ND NOPES, SINGAPORE
ISN't GONNA SNOW LOL. HAHAHAHAHA.
eh, studied so long okkk. well, that is ryan.

went t eat ramli burger after that.
shiokadoo! after that, went t th
UK funfair. whatever euro park was that,
but damn it was a good amusement park.
but prices were at high stakes. >;/

im not a very ideal person t go t a
amusement park with, cos i'm th
biggest coward on earth. but i would
love t sit on a ferris wheel. >;DD
i dont know why, but i got this thang for ferris wheel.
it looked damn goood nd nice t sit on it. urghh.

anyways, walked around nd headed t north point.
walked nonstop, went arcade.. nd went home after.
ryan got this pervertic.. umm habit. HAHA (you know!)
even wanna aim aunties, tsk.

// 210507

first day of school.
monday blues; urghhh >:/

anyways, school sucked.
chinese drills are killing again.
but mrs chong was nice. my mummy
baked cake nd i brought it t school;
i tried t be funny w mrs chong cos i was
damn hungry, lik always. >:x

me : mrs chong! i got cake for you!
me : we share ok ok ? ;DD
mrs chong : no no! -waves hand. no eating.
me : very nice one. you want t try ? i feed you.
mrs chong : dont neeed feed me. i got hands.
me : naah, come nd take! we share laa.
mrs chong : you ask your mum t bake whole cake then i pay.
me : WA, i give you free la.. you chinese teacher lehh!
mrs chong : nono, need t pay..

ok nd rubbish went on.
hahaha. anyways, lessons were boring.
parents conference on friday, just shoot me.
eh, had script checking. OMGGGSSSSSZZXXZ
i got first for english [?!] what the...
i was darn shocked; why ?

#1. i've NEVER topped th class.
#2. my results weren't high t start w.

URGHH. thats how badly we did la.
lol but still, yay for me. hmmmm.
after school, went t canteen t meet
emilia nd vanjil. waited for vanjil's cca
t start. heh. nd i found out something..

anyways, went t whitesands w emilia.
nothing t do there, so we headed t
pasir ris park. hahaha. nd it was funny.
we sat there doing nothing for so long.
but playing w ants. >:/ super fat nd juicy ones.
eh nd when dogs came..

#dog one;
emilia : OMGGG! DOG COMING!
me : relax laaaaaa! -pulls her down

#dog two;
emilia : OMG! HAVE YOU SEEN A POLICE DOG?!
me : wl, so nice lehhhh! -pulls her down

#dog three;
emilia : OMGOMGOMG! TH DOG COMING AGAIN!!!
me : -LAUGHS! omg not again. dont go lehh.

her third reaction was th funniest.
she packed her bag nd almost ran away.
made me laughed lik crazy. hahahaha.
headed back t whitesands, had dinner
at mac. she kept wanting me t look at her.
playing all sorts of funny lame games.
went home after. super tired.
i got a HUGGEE ZIT on my face, darn. :/

goodbye.
i wished i knew what's going on;
i'm always trying t be th best.

Sunday, May 20

12:19 PM

; give nd/or take

i'm brain dead.
yes lik totally shut down.
i don't know what t think.
really..

things aren't supposed t be lik that.
i'm tolerating, controlling, hiding all
my emotions i wished i could express.
i'm happy, yes i am really.
but i feel darn sad for myself.
period.

i wished i knew how much im appreciated.
i wished you'd show me how important i am.
i wished i knew where i stand in your heart.
i wished i was treated th way you'd wanna treat me.
i wished i could expect more &stop telling myself
t keep my hopes low nd small.
i wished you knew how much i love you.
i wished you knew how much you mean t me.
i wished you read it all. (you never would)
i wished my dreams came true..

it's hard t digest what my friends said.
it scares me how people actually reads my heart.
it scares me how they understand me deep inside.
they told me t do something i never would wanna
imagine. it brought tears t my eyes. from that
moment, i knew how much impact you have
made in my life. no, i cannot imagine life without you.

i'm dehydrating.
brain juices all sucked up.
screwed my midyears. damn.
wished we were more than this.
wished studies were much easier.
wished friendships were easier t keep.
wished relationships weren't easy t break.
wished i knew what you are thinking/feeling.

i hope you find whatever you've been looking for.
just remember where you're from nd who you are,
cos there's a thousand lights
that'll make you feel brand new,
but if you ever lose your way,
i'll leave one on for you.

always here for you.
never too far away.

Thursday, May 17

9:52 PM

; because of you

it's hard to believe
after everything you're still right beside me
wouldn't trade you for this whole world
thankful just being your girl

// 150507

met emilia at pasir ris interchange.
i was late, all th time i donte`know why.
we took 5 t town. her brilliant idea. haha.
it took an hour i think. but it seemed pretty
short. reached fareast, walked around.
shops werent open, bump into sacians.

walked t heeren. had favourite wanton nood.
yummy yum yum >:DDD
walked around after which. headed t cine.
wanted t watch 200 pounds of beauty.
but she kept fooling around nd told me
she will let me know when its 4.24pm nd
when th movie starts at 4.25pm. -.-"
NDND! it was already selling fast.. urghh.
nd finally, she agreed. but when we went t buy,
th guy said, "oh sorry, separate seats only.''
ERRR. HAHAHAHA. great. okk, so we walked
t shaw t find but didnt have any movies.

decided t train t tamp. haha.
didnt have that movie tooo.
so she egg-citedly wanted t watch
th malay horror movie - don't look back.
damn, it was scary ok. it has been eons
since i watched a horror flick. hahahaha.
bought popcorn nd drink. went for t movie.

it was in malay (duh!) ND! we were th only
chinese in th cinema. -laughs! damn funny.
i thought it was scary, cos of th sounds la.
how embarrassing ok. i was lik th only one
who screamed all th time! nd emilia didnt
allow me t cover my ears nd my eyes LOL.
nd she even pulled up my fringe nd made
me watch HAHAHAHA. sooo asking for a scream.

had dinner after that & home sweet home.
she kept laughing at me nd made me wear
her specs la. (i look ok what, not funny right)
great day spent; thank you marking day! ;D

// 160507

MT drills are really drilling me.
damnit, it sucks damn badly.
3 hours.. i never fail t doze off.
nd if i chat nd gossip w mable(MEIBAO),
she will close an eye but on pms-y days,
she will scold. hahaha not a good deal.

had boring lessons. i was dead tired.
had a bunch of goood friends who pakseh
us in school HAHA. school sucks now. so badly.
>)))): sighhh

after school, headed t whitesands w
emilia nd vanjil. had lunch there.
was busy-bodying over some couple issue.
met jessica there. vanjil went home.
we decided t walk t emilia's house. urghh,
nd blindly stepped on brown smelly mud.
my shoe's originally dirty already. now it's
muddy nd dirty. urgh >:/

her house was pretty far from whitesands.
i was sweating lik mad dog by then. haha.
rested at some near-by block. hahaha.
finally reached her condo, omg its a dead
nice condo i tell you. th poolside was damn nice.
aiyaah everything was damn good la. >;DD
i wished my parents had money.

went up t her house. put her bag nd stuff.
she showed me t th tennis court nd bbq place.
haha really interesting ok. tour guide for th day.
th gym was cool lol. out of nowhere. nd i was
holding a full bladder. haha nd th toilet reminded
me of ZOOO! >:DD th sinks were outside hahaha.
ok i know, im very amused. ((((:

went home after.
dead tired, school sucks.

// 170507

had usual. damn sleepy.
was awoken by this super sudden thunder.
scared th shit out of me, seriously. >:/
th usual after school. sometimes i think
music sucks. hahaha. dont ask me why.

;
baby it breaks my heart,
t think that lovin' me is not easy t do.
nd i don't mean t make it hard.
sorry for all th changes i put you through

sometimes it does break my heart.
knowing that im not sure of alot of things.
i wished i could see through your heart.
i wished i could read your heart.
youre too mysterious..
sometimes so cold t me, sometimes hot.
maybe its time for you t open your heart.
you know you are more than all this.

how i miss you so;

Monday, May 14

11:15 PM

; beautiful soul

yoyo' earthlings!
(notice how handsome my bro is. urgh)

// 120507

went for service. finally.
jeremy called me for seat,
so met him at attributes nd he
joined my cell for that day. haha.

service was fabulaso. as usual. >:DD
i love my cell too. everything's a blessing.
after service, went t town t meet my girlfriends.
met jeremy in th train again, small world.
went t fareast t meet those lovelehhs.
had subway! -haapppy grins. eh, steph's
friend came. took photo.. (attempted t take
a good shot but ahem, they were.. distracted[?])

walked around till around eleven.
bought a cookie from spinelli.
went home all tired nd worned out.

// 130507
happy mumsy's day!

went over t ryan's.
he was sick. i had horrible
waffle from th shop downstairs.
urghhh. >:/ bubble tea was good though.
phew. anyways, chilling out at his place.
;GEEEETT WELLL SOOOON, ryanie! >:DDD
(stop fake sleeping.. hahahaha)

went down t whitesands t meet my mum,
brother nd grandma. had swensens'. -yummy!
it was damnn goood. we had t queue la. but
it was fast, thanks t our small family. haha.

we ate till we almost exploded.
infact th bill was exploding toooo.
main course for everyone, side dishes,
sundaes for everyone.. drinks.. eeek!
i felt lik i ate ten pigs for th day! >:DD

we walked around after, we took beautiful
neoprints.. th one you see on top. hahaha.
my grandma's cute. really. love her lik mad!
>:DD heeee. omgomg, nd i bump into
emilia! w her parents hahahaa. her mama
recognized me haha. we headed home after.

had a very fufilling, great day!
hope you had a good mummy's day too! :p

// 140507
happy birthday, nicky ficky!

overslept again, urghhhh.
i have been oversleeping for th
past week plus today. cabbing..
taking dad's car if hes home..
>:/ i suck, really really suck.

had MT drills for 2 hours nd 30 mins.
i tell you, it really drilled my crazy.
its damn boring. i kept falling asleep.
what kuku MT am i learning man.. -.-

had recess, finally. freedom hahaha.
had accounts, nothing much learnt.
had SS, YES MY FAV.. i caught up w my sleep.
nd i slept for th whole period so comfortably
till i had red patches on my face cos..
der said it proves that my head is heavy.
eh, anyways! had maths.. almost died.
was surviving probability nd time past fast.

met emilia nd jessica outside my class.
she saw ms leong, went crazy lik nobody's
business. teacher-love.. hahahaha.

OH, nd btw world - MISS JAC... CHEN SUCK.
yeah tell me about it. i know th whole
world hates her, we all know. but she's
acting lik she's so big nd all. she thinks
people find her pretty nd likes her.. whatever.
omgomg, nd she even show favoritism t butches.
damnit. i hate her lik nobody's business. she
spoilt my day. i was walking w jessica nd emilia
until she tapped me..

me : what ?
chen : pull your socks up now.
me : HUH ?! -pulls up..
chen : higher!
me : WHAT. IM LEAVING SCHOOL ALR LA.
chen : HIGHER NOW!
me : OMG ?! bitch. -pulls
chen : i said HIGHER.
me : -stares at her. shut up man, bitch.
chen : no, its not staying there. hurry.
me : WHAT LA. didnt you hear me ?
i'm leaving school already what. fish you.
chen : i dont care. better make sure it stays there.
me : ya right! lik i will.. show off.

YA RIGHT, damnit.
stays there even when im out ?
how about me ripping your blouse
into size XXXL nd leaving it as turtle-neck until
youre going home ? please la, dont act big here.
this is not a mixed school. i dont even know you!
small fry, ass. always standing infront of th upper
sec, acting lik youre all-so-pretty nd good looking.
ew, please dont make me lose my appetite.
dont treat students lik youre th VP la. damn you.

nd you know after she act bitchy infront of me,
i started t yank nd shout behind her. nd i saw
her caught up w jessica nd smile nd act all nice.
omg ? yeah, some teachers in girls school just
dont learn. they just think sucking up t butches
are attractive. i'm sorry, i think its a turn off.
&i'm sorry, did i look lik a sec 1 t you ? HAHAHA.
i'm nobody t fool around w ok. -.-
can't wait t see you around in school, bitch.
(how i hate new small rank teachers who thinks
they are th queen in school nd acts lik shaking
their backside is all it takes t win nd acting big
picking on students are oh-so-great.) LOSER :DD

ANYWAYS.
(yeah i know she spoilt my entry)
emilia nd i waited for jessica's parent-teacher
thing t be over. waited for an hour or so,
we chatted w teachers who walked past.
mrs chong was funny. hahahah i was sick la.
she said, "why you nd your mei bao (mable)
always so scary one. suddenly sick!"
then somehow, we started t laugh nd talk.

jessica came out after that.
we headed t tamp mall t eat yoshinoya.
accompanied jesscia t eunos t meet her
friends. we stayed there t watch th train
pass, enjoying th breeze.. i was too sick
t think of anything t do. nose was dripping
lik tap nd itching lik mosquito bite!

eh, we headed t whitesands. walked around.
walked t downtown east t eat my subway.
hahaha, she was telling me all th good things
her dad said about me. lik just th first time
he saw me ytd. haha!

met connie, krystal, desiree nd mingyan.
hahaha nd barbara tooo! small world.
walked back t whitesands. accompanied
her for burger king. went home after.
i'm dead tired nd sick. >:/
(please please get well soooon, me!)

EH TMR IS MARKING DAY.
= NO SCHOOL NO SCHOOL NO SCHOOL :DD

i'm a happy girl.
happy boooster! >:p

goodnights!

Friday, May 11

6:58 PM

; keep your hands off my girl

say you love me;

TGIF.
yes, i've been saying this every friday.
hahahahaha i know. >:DDD

// 090507
went for th chalet.
didnt do much. everyone looked drunked
already. even though nobody touched any
alcohol. i was having irritating headache.
we caught spidey one! hahahahaha.
just lik a family gathering.. played at th
playground. i was all so sweaty nd stuffy.
nd they spotted how many "i remembered.."
i said lol. i can't help it, that chalet there
brought back memories from th clique. haha.
went up t th bedroom. all of us, hahahaha.
debrah nd i were having some 'fun' on th bed.
-grins. i dozed off nd i felt someone touching
my bra ok. i can just laugh, but i was too tired.
nd yes, i played my first mahjong in 7 months.
went home w emilia. we took th shuttle back
t tanah merah. i was soo tired, almost close t K.O.
cabbed back t her house, then home sweet home.

// 100507
YES BABY, NO PAPER [:

;
YES YES YES BABEEHH.
IT'S AIRPORT AGAIN >:DDD
i <33333 airport, lik siao.

it's kinda lik a study day. since i didn't have
any paper. woohooo, you have no idea how
happy i am when there's a holiday. hahahaa!

overdued photos from last time.
she was playing on th escalator.
you can't see, but she's going t
opposite direction of th escalator.

that's how a monster eats..

(i do have fears on this escalator)
heights.. creeeepy!

met emilia at airport. was supposed t climb
onto th same bus as her but when i actually
crawled(no la, i ran. really!) t th bus stop,
i saw a single deck bus left. but i was hoping
it wasn't 53 la. then she called me, ha i missed it.

met her at airport. always caught sleeping.
we had lunch there, met my dad. hahaha.
bought our drinks nd little snacks, headed
t viewing mall t study. met a few of her classmates.
i think im growing bald, she practically plucked
out all my damaged hair nd white hair. >:/
which made up most of my head. HAHAHAHA.

we were loitering around. met alot of sacians.
it's sac ground again. eh, oh yes! we saw a
FREEEE Singapore Tour bus. haha you know how
i love free shuttle/chartered bus which brings
you everywhere nd anywhere. >:DD

we waited nd waited for th bus, wanted t
ask th ground staff but we didn't dare nd
finally th bus came. haha. guess what,
we saw many eurasians nd indians coming
out.. nd they had stickers on them. >:/ grrhh!
hopes dashed, it was a tour guide thingy.

we headed t bugis. walked around.
bought a top. hahaha we saw alot,
as in ALOT of butches. yeapppp.
she kept pointing nd spotting..
&we even had it repeated. we saw
alot lik a thousand times. hahahaha.
had damn goood bubble tea >:DD
(which i found out was a friend's dad shop)
nd emilia found a damn ideal hair she wanted.
which made me laughed lik nobody's business.

i suggested that we walked t cityhall.
i saw th suntec city building, so no harm. [:
i was her maid for th day, or maybe everyday.
carried her heavy bag w my extra-sumo-bag.
she complained lik yo'granny. hahahaha.
we walked nd walked. sac people was everywhere.
passed by Raffles Education, saw ex-seniors.
we saw more butches, even one who drove.
seriously, i think butches are conquering th world.
what will happen t those poor guys..
easy, they turn gay. (how!)

anyways, walked t marina square.
headed t topshop. bought mummy
a blazer for Mother's Day. >:DD
bought myself a little something tooo.
walked everywhere. got bruises.
nd she even said it looked ugly,
when it was from her -.-" hahaha.
sat around at a bench, doing nothing.
laughed at everything which is nothing too.
HAHA, nd i ate koko crunch..

me : "want some ?"
emilia : -laughed lik mad.
me : WHAT NOW!
emilia : you sound lik my maid!
(that's what she say everyday.. so ya.)
hahahahaha!

from there, we walked t raffles city.
hoho you know i love walking. haha.
especially when i'm in sneakers. ha!
yes surprise surprise! -laughs!

// 110507
woohooo, freeeedomm!

okay i can break dance for you now.
cos' midyears are over. hahahaha.
but when th results are back,
i'll do a jump-down dance for you. (:

followed cynthia t tkgs today.
for her piano duet. we spent only
three hours practicing it - ytd morning
at my house for 1.5 hours, nd after sch
today for another 1.5 hours. hahaha.

went t whitesands, met vanjil nd emilia.
went home. super duper early, first time.
i need a rest. hahaha, i only slept 3 hours!
damn peeved w myself. i lied on my bed for
2 hours, reflecting on everything in my life.
crying for no reason, thinking about my friends.
thinking about love, thinking about their lives.
haha, call me crazy. i think i am.

my daily horoscope :
your heart is hungry for more romance
so feed it however you can today.
(who's gonna feed me. i want kit kat)

Tuesday, May 8

10:41 PM

; especially for you

when you're gone,
th pieces of my heart are missing you..
when you're gone,
th face i came t know is missing too..
when you're gone,
all th words i need t hear t always
get me through the day nd make it okay.

;i miss you

i've never felt this way before.
everything that i do,
reminds me of you.
nd the clothes you left,
they lie in my wardrobe.
nd they smell just like you..
i love the things that you do/

when you walk away,
i count the steps that you take.
th steps that you take t move me,
nd also th steps you take t hurt me..
;do you see how much i need you right now[?]

// 070507
happy birthday, ryan! (:

had my literature& accounts paper.
screw my accounts, nothing good about it.
my literature, i wished time was forever.. >:/

went t tamp w mable. bought presents.
had Hans for lunch. headed home early.
but i was locked out again. waited for bro.
rushed through my music coursework. damnit.
it sucks, my worst music writing, but who cares.

left house around 530pm.
rushed lik mad cos i thought th
movie was early but in th end, it wasn't.
rushed t secret recipe t grab a cake.
met th guys, at dhoby ghaut exchange.
it was ryan's birthday. gave him present
nd cake. maybe it wasn't as special lik
every year.. but ohwels. yeap.

walked around. crap around.
i don't know what was going on w me.
hmmm, movie only started at 845pm.
caught th flick, spiderman 3. i'm not
a very fantasy-movie person. so i guess
it was ok ? haha i dont know how t judge
such shows. yeahh, it was freezing in
th cinema. wished i had someone t hug.
haha. it ended at 1130pm. damn, almost 3 hrs.

went home w nicky boy. [:
hahaha. crapping nd talking..
he wasted 4 smses of mine.
full of rubbish. haha noobtart.
reached home close t 1am.
nd yes, congrats t me - next day got paper.

ryan, hope you liked th present nd th cake.
hope you enjoyed your day too!

// 080507

woke up at weird hours.
somemore, i slept pretty late.
i had a good cry. don't ask me why.

slept again, woke up, slept again.
i can just die man. >:/
supposed t wake up at 730am.
but i overslept till 9+++++
i suck, damn badly. urghhhhh.
i was a zombie for th whole day.

was almost late for exam.
cabbed t school. hate cab fares.
damnit. now i'm dead broke. ay.

sat for bio paper. think it sucked.
but not as bad as my accounts ha.
well, i'm pretty screwed up this year.
wonder if this is a cycle-routine thang,
or issit just me this year. tell me, someone.

went t whitesands w emilia nd vanjil.
had lunch at macs. i was pretty stoney.
went t th library. had good laughs.
vanjil left. hang around, had dinner at
foodcourt. hahaha busy shopping for
emilia's mummy's cough drop. -.-"
she's a big fuss man, worst than me!
HAHA. tell me about it. nd we actually
stood outside th MRT for soooo long.
listening t this basker sing. i tell you,
he's really worth my time. damn good.
if only he could join Singapore Idol..
he'd have beaten everyone else! hahaha.
i had urgent full bladder afterwhich,
emilia making me laugh nd hitting me
didnt help but made it worst. toilet flooding
made me control but yet again, i laughed.
so yeap, i didnt pee in my pants la. haha.

headed home.
now im damn stoney again.
maths paper 2 tmr. 2 hours..
urghh i can just faint. >:/ -frown.
goodbye.

--joke of th day--

(my friend) says :
you know where to get this strap to strap over yourself.
like those cowboy or ah pek wear one.

VEEKEE says:
LOL YOU MEAN SUSPENDERS ?

.

i’ve waited long enough t find you.
i wanna put all th hurt behind you,
nd i wanna bring out th love.

Sunday, May 6

11:55 AM

; please don't go away

you're incredible,
nothing but exceptional. (:

// 050507
happy birthday, der.

we had a drunk night at sentosa
on friday. headed t km8. ended up
at twin tower, with drinks from 7-11.
i can't remember much. i was pretty tipsy.
i should keep my phone away from me when
i'm like that. >:/ spare me th embarrassment.
high, gone, higher.

stood outside my door ytd night,
nobody was home. i had no keys.
weeping nd crying, i was tired.
why does it feel lik nobody cares.
exams aren't helping. they are screwers.
i need a happy pill.

damnit, i overslept for piano lesson.
too tired. worn out.
revive me, would you ?

justsoyouknow,
this feeling's taking control of me
--

if you see my girl,
just tell her i miss her smile;

Saturday, May 5

11:59 PM

damnit. )):
how did i ever got drunk[?]

i feel damn shitty today. >:/
hangover. bad headache.

;will you be there for me in times lik this ?

will update again, tomorrow.
sighhhhhh. >))))))):

Thursday, May 3

10:22 PM

; forever

when i think of love,
i think of youuuu.

if you see my girl,
just tell her i miss her smile.
when she holds me,
i know she's one thing i cannot live without.

;i dont wanna stay unknown,
make it clear nd known t me.
th little things you do t scare me.
tears are not that hard t come by,
when it comes t you..

maydaymaydaymayday..

when i catch her eye,
i could hardly breathe/.

IM GOING CRAZY.
URGHHH. >))))):

also, screw th midyears.
screw it. i hate education.