BEAUTIFIED PRINCESS x. FEAT. Miss Beauty Queen.

Friday, June 30

10:16 PM

; fetish for blinkies :DD

school's another bore.
rushed my literature essays
like crazy nd mr chan didnt
even bother t collect. -arghh.

investiture today sucked big time.
didnt enjoy a single bit. donnte`
ask me about it. -peeved. nd soe
irritating soul spoilt my earrings
which i left on my table. how
nice of them.[?] >:/

had buffet with mummy.
went home with her.
bathed nd watched teevee.
went for dental. was late.
eslynn nd yimin came too.

had my purple rubberbands
for my top set of teeth. she
said that it is t make me happy.
nd im gonna pluck two more teeth.
she asked me if i was ready t pluck
today. [siao!] i said no. so it should
be out in two weeks time. ohwels.

went tamp alone. heh heh.
eslynn was like, youu not scared ?
haha. i scared i get kidnapped. (:

in the bus, i heard someone call
my name despite listening t mp3.
but the bus was too crowded t see.
i wonder who man. i thought it was
sam, but didnt sound like her. -geez.

all these precious moments,
with youu by my side.
must be a gift from heaven,
that's holding me all night.

Thursday, June 29

9:16 PM

; youure the one i'll always miss

>>> CUTEO~!
heh heh. (:
i can make my words
as cute as i want. he loves cuteo.
:x beeeg perv. he eyes on my word.

...

it has been so long since we have talked.
i hope that things are still the same,
hoping they will never change.
cause what we had can't be replaced.
donn't let our memories fade away,
keep me in youur heart for always. (:

youu made me believe that
i can do almost anything.
youu stood right by me,
through the tears,
through everything.

i will remember youu,
nd baby that's forever true.
youure the one that i'll always miss,
never thought it would feel like this.
i'll be there for youu,
no matter what youur going through,
in my heart youu'll always be,
forever baby >:DD

i promise youu i won't forget
the times we shared, the tears we cried.
youu'll always be the sun in my sky.

if the day should come when
youu need someone,
i will be there. (:

I LOVE RYAN, HA. :DDD

...

im getting invested tmr, again.
aha, i didnt even attend the rehearsal.
im alittle nervous though. >:x
my mummy's invited. heh heh.

many many concerts coming.
many mock exams nd homework.
nd nlevel's english oral is just next wed.
help.

off t rush my literature assignment.
busy busy days approaching.
so hooked up.

>muahhh

Wednesday, June 28

9:14 PM

; what a special day [?]

just when happiness was on
my side, God took them away.

.in a blink of an eye,
everything around us fell apart.
i thought we were fine.

youu broke my heart,
my eyes swelled up in tears.
im drenched in my sorrows.
my wound that never heals.

>> i so hate youu, but i love youu.
i cannt stop thinking of youu.

...

tuesday

school was boring.
accounts was one of the highlights.
never had been fun before but we
had this business in groups. named
our business, moonbucks. -laughs.
our capital was 1million. bigshot.

after school, cabbed t tamp with
der, dap, rhoda. haha. kept teasing
rhoda. telling her that her girlfriend
messaged der, 'hey broz! wanna meet
at tamp ?' -laughs! bluff her that her
girlfriend called dap nd i sistaz. LOL.
gay or not. >:x

went t starbucks. had our treat from
der. daphne had her potato salad.
der nd i had our chocolatety eclair.
super nice. my favourite! >:DDD

we were like doing some work there,
until my unexpected urgency t pee
approached. der didnt let me off.
they distracted me with cam-whoring,
singing songs. haha. no wonder i got
weak bladder. -laughs.

cabbed t der's house after.
super fun nd fun nd fun. heh.
read magazines, ate m&n's
nd her kinder surprise! >:DDD
then somehow, started cam-whoring
with her nd ended up dancing with her.
she thinks we're acting in take the lead. heh.
madness. daphne caught the video.
will post it asap after i upload. (:

it was fun. went home around 715pm.
never liked home especially with such
parents. -arghh. i love der's house!

>>> photos are below.

...

today. cabbed t school. nothing special
about school. many many free periods
as usual. especially since day one. pfft.

had literature tutorial after.
gosh, it involves everyone.
so stupid. arghh. ohwels.

had our lunch together w clique.
laming with their stupid riddles.
nd they caught me many times.
made me so malu ok. >.<
nd some girlfriend of mine,
HILDA LEE - racist. :/

literature tutorial was slack.
nothing much. mp3ing, talking.
just had many many essays t do.
ohwels. went t tamp with der nd dap.
went popular buy things. met desmond.
he call me, head big, body small. stupid.

-HEH HEH.
another boring day tmr.
going off t search for my literature.
books nd papers are not my cup of tea.

happy anniversary, baby.
21 months. (:

8:32 PM

; tell me when will youu be mine ?

>feat. the son, puma. :x

-sucks air.

judging by appearance,
youu're just being shallow.

nice ? duhh. done by ME.

Monday, June 26

10:01 PM

; day one

day one at school. (:
pleaase click on beautiful faces
t view more more photos. ((:

8:30 PM

; beauties of life

school reopened.

was prettehh nervous.
lost my tie in the morning.
that's the last thing thats gonna
happen but it did. sacians can
never leave their house without
a tie, if not i think they're weird.
its ugly nd gross without ties.
ransacked my house nd found it
under my bed. -geez heh.

met eslynn at my house.
went t school, was at the dot.
many announcements, new teachers,
new timetables, everything new luhh.
got spot check also. my babbby, der
helped me cut my nails cos im really
noob at nailcutting. she's damn cute
luhh. she cut my third finger like some
lego block. square nd uneven. she said,
nice. -laughs! she asked me t ask her
help me cut nails next time. actually,
im prettehh satisfied with my nails.
she's the pro. >:DD

had some vice-chairman meeting.
went back t class nd had class matters.
at 915am, went on t av theatrette.
mrs loh, our principal was gonna speak
t us again. ohwels. stupid talks. -effggh.

im obsessed with ngee ann poly!
>> NGEE ANN ! NGEE ANN ! :DD
heh heh. der was saying that we can
go t laselle together. that's my second
choice. -muahahaha. ngee ann..

i was rather random.
talked about der's designing potential,
i grew t talk about my house entrance.
imagined der inventing this graphic/flash
design at my doorstep. when people enter,
they will have t use the touchpad nd learn
how t use my house nd where t turn nd stuff.
laughed like mad nd yeah, mrs chong scolded
us. -growls. but still, its funny!

recess was food, maple, soccer.
gosh, i love beckham! >:p

had maths. kinda recapped alot.
especially when i forgot everything.
afterwhich, was rather slack luhh.

laughed, played nd narcisstisted[?]
with der. daphne was busy with her
hair. haha. physics nd pc was our
free periods. so it makes 4 periods.
-ew. waste of time. grrrhh.

after school, went home.
came home hoping t see scv
ready for me t watch. but damn,
i saw nothing. my mum told me
they couldnt find the wire. :/

; BARNICLES!

went for piano at 5pm.
yipeehhs. last lesson till
my teacher gives birth.

had pizza for dinner just now.
i'm effing boreeed again. -.-

Although the name Victoria creates
an interest in the deeper aspects of life,
we emphasize that it limits self-expression
and friendly congeniality
with a moody disposition.
Your idealistic and sensitive nature
gives you a deep appreciation
for the finer things of life
and a strong desire to be
of service to humanity.
It is far easier for you to express
your deeper thoughts and feelings
through writing than verbally.
You find pleasure in literature,
in poetry, and in your ideals
and will turn to them when you
feel you have been misunderstood.
You are deeply moved by
the beauties of life, especially nature

very random. ((:
photos up soon.

Sunday, June 25

2:50 PM

; where's my sunday

ahh, i'm effing bored.
first sunday during the hols,
spending it at home. darn. :/

i miss my boy.
i miss the sunday townings.

stupid maple, always full.
i cannot tolerate feeling bored.
-peeeveed.

i need a breather.
sheesh.

[edited]
alrytes, so i slept the whole day.
till 830pm. it was heaven. haha.
so shiok! (: effing tired luhhh.

forgot t mention,
i've got this lump on my eye.
like the one daphne got!
>:/ im kinda scared. helppp!

im prettehhh nervous for school
tmr. yeah yeah. shy shy. :x

ohhohh! -jumps for joy!
three cheers for scv. >:DD
its coming tmr. i hope my mum
wont have t unsubscribe it again.
she did it because my bro watched
too much teevee. ohwels. -heh heh.

-photos t add on t those
at the bottom.

; isnt that my boy behind ?
aha, peeping tom.

[/edited]

1:49 AM

; veekee is a romancer

rain rain go away,
come again another day.
little veekee wanna sleep!

>>>

followed mummy t nbyn,
the photoshoot studio for
some makeup course. haha.

pretteehh interesting. >:DD
heh heh. its like youur very own
personal teacher luhh. fun fun!

afterwhich, went t see our photos
they had designed for our album
we ordered. damn, its beautiful.
i love my page the best though.
biased luhh, my face what. >:x

we walked around raffles place.
went t tamp, ate at long john's.
walked around then went ntuc.
-grins. bought my fav nutella!

went home. so tired. tried t maple.
like what i blog previously. so played
piano nd camped at the couch. haha.
played with ham ham, super cute pleaase.
-jumps! :DDD

went t church. service was great.
was really sleepy nd tired though.
kinda dozed alittle during sermon.
man, i feel bad though i caught the
important notes. heh heh, still bad.

had debrief. joan's back! haha. man,
my cell's beginning t pick up the
broken pieces back. yeah yeah. took
photos with ally! aha, she's so cute.
nd those beeg beautiful eyes. i feel
so inferior in the photos, those puny
eyes of mine. still, we're prettehh girls.
-laughs!

ryan, darius, zhenghui nd yongqiang
were waiting for me. ally, joan nd i
left after. walked t the mrt. took the
train. haha. saw that cute little boy
i met yesterday in the bus. the guys
keep insulting my fetish for that little
boy. i mean, he's young nd cute, are
the guys jealous or what ? > :p

went tamp mall with baby. (:
we dined at cafe cartel. haha.
it was tremendous. heh heh.
duhh- :DDDD!!

ordered our meal. fantastic
pork rib for him nd something
which i donnt know what i ate.
haha. but nice luhhhh.

ohhyeah. i cut my food nd fed it
t my boy's plate. he teared drastically.
gosh, he's so cutee. but i was really
shocked luhh. i thought i bullied him
or hurt him somewhere. his face grew
red nd started clearing his eyes.

me : omgawd! what did i do?!
baby : -shakes head.
me : donnte`tell me youure tearing.
baby : -shakes head.
me : siao! DONNT CRY DARLING!
baby : no luhhh.
me : why youu cry ?
baby : very touched.
me : siao, i only touched youur plate.
baby : youu first time do such thing.
baby : i always wished youu did that.
baby : i'm very very happy. -clear tears.
me : o.o really. -flies t heaven nd smile.

isnt that sweet ?
my boy got a soft heart.
easily melt his heart luhh.
but i was unaware. so it
really brightens my day.
geez, im 1000x a happier person.
i love himmmmm!

darling sent me home.
waited at the bus stop.
suddenly had the urge t go pee.
gosh, i got such an unpredictable
bladder. -sheesh.

took number 3 home.
didnt feel like 3 cos'
time seems t fly w him arnd.
heh heh. i think im romancer.
>:DDD -laughs!

; happy happy veeekeee.
made someone's day today.
made someone's day ytd.
gonna make someone's day tmr.

damn, it sure feels good t be
a blessing t others nd t be
a sunshine t them. >>>> HAPPY!

1:29 AM

; the loveleehhs

my meal.

baby's meal.

; scapegoat.

; pardon me, bad eating habits.

too far apart. couldnt snap
a proper photo. ohwels. (:

Saturday, June 24

2:45 PM

; maple maple maple!

- maple's such an idiot.

arghhh. full, full.. FULL!
2x exp that's why.
thank God i managed
t play yesterday night.
but still, i wanna play!

going out soon.
(:

Friday, June 23

11:30 PM

; should i scream or should i cry ?

-so peeeveeed.

i'm so pissed nd angry now that
i donnte`know what t do man.
i hardly act like a child of God,
even if i'm one. >:(

what my mum said was right.
i attend church nd cellgroup
no difference. i became worst.
without a shadow of a doubt,
i thought maybe i really did.

i'm a really hot tempered girl,
nd i tried t control my temper.
most of the time, i will break
down. all soaked in tears.
tolerance was hard for me.
i tried nd tried. sometimes
i succeed, sometimes i fail.

i feel like shit when i sin.
i feel like a monster when i scream.
i feel like an idiot.

my brother changed alot over
the holidays. his camp had changed
sucha him into a different person.
he's no longer the helpful, loving one.
he's now the threatening one, rude,
heartless creature i've ever met.
it hurts me so badly that i sometimes
wonder if he's my brother.

i feel stupid now.
didnt overcome my temper,
got scoldings from my mum,
all because of my brother.
nd crying infront of the computer
screen is all i ever do.

i donnt know what t feel right now.
i just wished i was bold enough
t runaway from home. anywhere
but home. i never liked t stay at home.
besides the computer nd the teevee,
i never enjoy nags, scoldings nd loneliness.

; can someone tell me if i should
smile or cry ?

i've always been a source of
encouragement t people arnd
me. a form of blessing t them.
but why havent i become a
blessing nd encouragement
t my family nd myself ?

; yet another happy report,
i've been an encouragement
t nicholas phua. that feeling
was something no words can
describe.

i always looked happy on the outside.
but deep down inside,
im torn apart.

heh.

Thursday, June 22

2:35 PM

; revamped diary [ver2.0]

donnt youu like the new blog ? (:
heh heh. in rememberance of the
old blog, french kissy. <3

tuesday

went t ryan's house with my bro
at ten thirty. watched teevee.
he played ps2 with his brother.
aha, used baby's laptop t play
maple! >:DD -heeheeh.

great day. went down t get some
sweets nd chips. played wrestling
on ps2. damn, theres this hot chick
who's a wrestler nd she's noneotherthan
VICTORIA. -laughs! really really!

went home around 9.30pm.
met zhenghui at yishun inter.
followed them buy their night
snacks. haha. gay night for them.
parents fetched us at 10 plus. (:

wednesday

parents drove us t some water amusement
park at chinese garden. amagawdd. >:DD
met darl, zhenghui nd yongqiang there.
bought our tickets nd went in. super beeg.

we played around the lazy river first.
my bro nd i rent the float. ahaha.
it was fun. but im not a swimmer.
so i couldnt tolerate water that gets
into my eyes. they kept spashing water
luhhh. -peeeevveeedd. heh heh.

went into the wave pool. waited for the
wave t come then went towards the front.
gosh, the waves were huge nd beeeg! ((:
my bro was on the float cos' he wasnt
tall enough t stand. nd i was holding on
t the float since i cannt swim. hmmm.

suddenly, the float turned over. my bro
fell into the water nd struggled. baby
went t rescue him ? yeah but thats not all.
darl's hand wacked me on my face nd i fell
into the water. damn, i struggled myself
up. was damn scared. my bro almost drown.
he was like, -teary eyed. heh heh. >:/

ziqing nd ct came after. haha.
there was this guy, zhenghui nd yongqiang
assumed that he was looking at me. he
looked like kenny! heh heh. someone was
green-eyed ha. >:x gehgek!

ziqing nd i sat on the float together.
as she got down, my bro over turn the
float. damn, i screamed nd sunk in the
water. i thought i was gonna die until
baby carried me out. >:( -screeeams.
i almost cried okay. arrgghhhh.
thanks t my superman. (:

; i hate t say this but swimming is a
good ability for safety nd fun.

went t play the slides. didnt play.
was scared. haha. nd it was too
crowded. waited for them t play.
yeah yeah. nd my spagetti straps
which was tied t the float, fell
into the pool. i tried t find nd found it,
the boy almost stepped on it until..

me : *screeams. excuse me boy!
me : donnt step!
boy : *looks. O.O

okay then everyone started telling
me i was so fierce. was i ? i thought
it was okay. hmm hmmm. >.<>healthy beng! ROFL. sounds gross.

went t ryan's house. watched soccer.
went t play maple. haha. i love my boy.
baby's mummy was cute. we came then
she sat there nd said, wo hen ji moi.
-cute or what! (((:

enjoyed myself like 256258910 times.
its the people i went with that made
my day beautiful. -manymanylovee!

>>> i love my superman! <3

heh heh.

Monday, June 19

10:10 PM

; girl plays soccer

the only reason why anyone is
not satisfied with life is only
because we're not satisfied
with the relationships around us.

- now i understood what sis vic
preeched at cgm. totally agreeable.

...

sunday

went t expo t find my boy nd
gang, took the train down t
clementi. haha. they went town.

the journey there was entertainin.
darius nd his uncilivilised jokes, ha.
zhenghui bullying me. HAHA. i mean,
seriously funny. >:DD saw jeremy!

waited for sister alice at mac.
we went t shop for ya rei's
birthday present. the shop really
displays nice clothes. >:DD im so
going back there again. but its
clementi. ah, nvm. nice clothes, why not.

urm, we met the rest at coffeeshop.
bro ian's funny. sis alice reminds me
of sis yvonne. miss the old e31 though.
had their meal, headed t nus. (: hehheh.

the guys outnumbered the girls.
so we played soccer. nd i really
donnt like soccer. i get really nervous
when the ball is rolling towards me.
ruben plays really 'wild'. haha. he
kicks the ball like so far. it almost
went in the canal. funnny. (:

bro alvin kicked t me, i panicked.
i stoned nd dazed haha. jia hui
was scary. he ran towards me, trying
t tackle my ball. i started screaming,
he backed off. kinda humiliating. ha.

great game. bro alvin, bro ian nd
bro kenneth really pro luhhh. -grins.
my both beeg toes was hurt. like
numb nd pain. haha. >:( -whinees.

played captain's ball. man, its fun.
but its ten times more tiring. the
guys are like -zoooom! super fast.
but fun luhh. maybe the guys didnt
really enjoyed much. its a girls game
anyway, so yeah. heh.

slacked around. played volleyball.
nothing much t do after. everyone
drifted away. so was kinda bored.
until 7pm. we left the place.

[edited]
ohh ohh! i got hit by the soccer
ball ruben kicked. like yeah.
nd it was super bruised now.
heh heh. ruben can kick hard.
those muscles i build up for
years didnt go down the drain. (:
[/edited]

went t some bus stop at highway.
boarded a bus which i didnt even
know where it headed t. jiahui,
wilson nd i were like lost. haha.
so we took the bus t bugis.

we were like talking about the
old e31 nd the good times. very
very fun t talk about that. i miss
those good times when i go home
with them nd talk about everything.
-dreaams.

took a train back. haha.
talking about relationships.
nothing surprising about jiahui
nd zwing. yeah yeah. fun fun.

i guess jiahui was too drifted
in talking that he almost missed
his stop. thank God wilson dragged
him out. funny guys. >:)))

...

had piano today.
gosh, heard my teacher played
like after 57202685 years. damn.
super nice nd inspiring. why didnt
she become some performer! -arrgghh.

; she's my inspiration.
thank God for such teacher.

<3

Sunday, June 18

11:07 AM

; the perfect girls