if youu play with sweet nd smooth talk, youu'll be stung.

beautiful. i must say.


what youu harvest, is what you sow.
youu reap what you plant.
what we know when we develop land,
we tend to forget when we cultivate our hearts.

if the heart is a greenhouse nd our thoughts are seeds,
shouldn’t we be careful about what we sow?

shouldn’t we be selective about the seeds
we allow to come into the greenhouse.
shouldn’t there be a sentry at the door.
isn’t guarding the heart a strategic task.

Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.
- Proverbs 4:23 NIV

it means.
Be careful what you think, because your thoughts run your life.



; AHA. im trying t meditate on the word.
it seems so hard. arghh.


back t mapleeee. (:

here i am, humbled by youur Majesty
covered by youur grace so free
here i am, knowing i'm a sinful man
covered by the blood of the Lamb

now i've found the greatest love of all is mine
since youu laid down youur life
the greatest sacrifice

Majesty, Majesty
youur grace has found me just as i am
empty handed, but alive in youur hands
Majesty, Majesty
forever i am changed by youur love
in the presence of youur Majesty

here i am humbled by the love that youu give
forgiven so that i can forgive
here i stand, knowing that i'm youur desire
sanctified by glory nd fire


; ARGHH. i'm so pissed. my family is so screwed.


-thanks alot dad.

today's his day. (: prom night for himm.
haha. happy for him. went t lavender t make IC.
okay i bump into quite a few people. such a small
world. saw ada again ! bump into her last saturday
at plaza sing. haha. it's simple, fate. (:
she complained so much about her photo. haha.
then i had my photo taken. okay i swear i looked way
better before the photo shoot. after that, the photo
was pure shit dung. (: gross. haha. queued
for the ticket. okay i had t wait for 26 people. thats
quite alot. saw my yamaha friend. man, she changed.
it has been at least 5 years since i had yamaha lessons.
okay her legs arent as fat as mine but her hip was huge.

okay. shut up, vic.

(: alright. sat behind them just t make
them notice me. the mum stared at me,
then i stared back. hope she would recognise
me. haha. she looked away then turned back
and said hi. LOL. i thought she left. but she
suddenly appear next t me. i GASPED. lol she
laughed. she asked for my name ?! she forgot
my name man. LOL. okay i remembered her
daughter's. CALISTA. AHA. (:

i was waiting alone again. AHA. heard someone's
voice. distinctly loud. it sounded so familar.
i realised its MELODY. okay i turned and saw her.
LOL. kept looking trying t catch her attention till
her friend told her. (: she sat next t me and disturb me.
LOL. she said she didnt know i was noble.
reading some book that finds purposes in life. LOL.
i'm noble okay. finally it was my turn. (:

the lady was funny. she had so much t say.
i wrote my number since she asked. she said
my handwritting got personality. AHA. then
i had t write again nd this time, she said i do
things very fast. LOL. what's with her. (:

; cutee.

i headed t town after that. met my handsome
boy at somerset. (: haha. he was with his handsome
friend. okay. so everyone was handsome today. (:
we went t cine t eat. long john's. (: it's kinda
fun walking with them. like the men in black.
they enter, everyone look. haha LIMELIGHTERS.

AHA. they are funny. i loveeee. (: some horrible
jokes over the food table. i donnt wanna say. =x
haha walked around after that. went t the nineth
floor. watched people play lan. haha. went t the
ladies. came out, saw ryan styling hair. LOL.
man, the toilet was translucent. =x whatever.
i was actually peeping looking in the
gents. ryan caught me. came out and drag me IN.
UH OH. (: nono. it's not what youu think. =x

walked around. ct got problem with rain. his hair
just melts when the rain touches it. beautiful eh.
hair + rain = love. LOL. the rain touches the hair's
heart thats why it melts. haha. went esprit. at the
hotel, got another school's prom night. LOL. i told
ryan, pick one girl. the ladies are waiting. HAHA.
well, we seen the average. the purple one - more
than average. the pink one - less than average. LOL.
no comments, boy. (:

took a bus t plaza sing. watch ryan play initial D.
fabulous. (: then yong qiang came. haha. he wore
pink collar shirt. kawaii. and his jacket was pink inside.
haha niceee. (: baby walked me t the station. i left.


; LET ME BE YOUUR DATE.

haha new template. felt like changing font for
this entry. (: ohh well. met my boy this morning.
it's our fourteen month anniversary.
one year two months, more moree moreee ! (:
haha. someone dressed so formal nd shuai when
we're supposed t go pasir ris park. nd i was in
PE attire. =/ went t scroll at pasir ris park. haha.
it was fun nd amusing. (: had t rush t school.
he had t wait for me opposite school. went t school
t try some pb's formal wear i assume. okay.
how funny. it was huge. i could wear it over my shorts.
i must say the outfit looks horrible. what weird taste.

dismissed. went t meet my boy again. haha.
sam's hair is ALGAEEE. LOL. thats what i called
her. greeen algae. went t eat at bedok interchange.
his treat of chicken rice. hmmm rather oily nd chicky-ly.
haha. went t town. he was introducing me t some
rather special and good tou huay. okay it was a
tremendous LONG walk. i was almost dying. haha.
but the tou huay wasnt such a disappointment.
it was freezing cold nd nice. delicious ! (: haha.
was relunctantly walking back. haha.
kept pestering him for my rumba. he owe me one. (:
-gleeems. alright.

went t plaza sing. walked around.
then met ct nd ziqing. i love the sign shop.
whatever the shop name is. haha.
never fails t facinate me. (: wheeeeee.
ryan's next birthday present - HORNY SIGN.
he asked for it. haha. suits him.


AHA. watched wait till youure older preview.
it's funny. may consider in renting its cd.
i got many muuveees in mind. (:
anyone care t watch with mee ?

arcades are quite not strict now.
i went in with my uniform. not bad. (:
went home shortly after that. was sleeping
and dreaming LOL. precious tricked me la.
told me he leaving at tamp. fineee.
had a weird feeling that hes still in the train
so i looked back. didnt see his shoe.
so i turned and before i looked away,
a fine fair face showed. he was sitting the
other side. aww how surprising. (:

; I LOVE HIM.

he kept pestering me t let him in my house.
LOL followed me can. stalker ! i wanna marry
youu ! =x made him leave. went home, made
him come back t my house. LOL. piano teacher
didnt appear for who-knows-what reason. ryan
helped re-string the guitar. haha. we watched
teevee and played games. he's a king in games.
how annoying playing with him. had dinner at my
place then he left. haha. eat then go. pfft.

; nevertheless, i still heart himm. (:

an airline ticket t romantic places
nd still my heart has wings
these foolish things remind me of youu
a tinkling piano in the next apartment
those stumblin' words that told youu what my heart meant
a fairground's painted swings
these foolish things remind me of youu
youu came, youu saw, youu conquered me
when youu did that t me
i knew somehow this had t be
the winds of March that make my heart a dancer
a telephone that rings but who's t answer?
ohh, how the ghost of youu clings
these foolish things remind me of youu
the scent of smouldering leaves the wail of steamers
two lovers on the street who walk like dreamers
ohh how the ghost of youu clings
these foolish things
remind me of youu
how strange, how sweet, t find youu still
these things are dear t me
they seem to bring youu so near t me
the sigh of midnight trains in empty stations
silk stockings thrown aside dance invitations
ohh how the ghost of youu clings
these foolish things
remind me of youu

...


vivid horrible pictures haunt my emotions.
i thought i was dying. it was perhaps the
fever symptom. i felt it all in my emotions.
i saw red boiling hot background around
me. i saw my temperature kept increasing.
i felt myself panicking. my heart thumped
real fast. i looked around frantically. although
my bro and mum were sponging me. i tried
t act cool. man, i donnt know. i thought i saw
a horrible beast. arosing from the boiling
red bubbles. i was very scared. so scared till
i jumped back t the pillow and slept.

praise God i'm recovering.
praise God.

havent been updating. pardon me. (:
wonderful. im under a fever now.
38.2 degrees. haha. that totally
explains the bad headache and chill
throughout the day. ohh well. =/
my head's spining badly. geez i just
had the cold. =/ okay whatever.
i must say i've got a wonderful little
brother. (: he even volunteered t sleep
next t me on the floor and let me have
his bed. im touched by this small gesture.
he even cried when i looked at him real
sick and shagged. LOL. he teared.

today has been a exciting day. except all
the chills and headaches that interupted.
met eslynn at my house. brought for her
socks cos she forgot. =x okay i saw that
it was a rainy morning. how horrible. it ruined
all our plans of going t the themepark. ohh well.
it's alright. met the rest at arcade. LOL. melody
was playing drums. slow love song. LOL.
everyone was watching and we were all astounded.
is it a right word t say ? pardon me. bad english. ha.
eslynn and me played the "ryan favourite game".
some colour game. more like fastest finger first. =/
LOL. eslynn was retired. then next meeeee.
sherie joined in la. and of course, CHAMPION. =x

went t bowling alley and bowled. haha was rather
amusing and funny as usual. especially playing with
this bunch of beloved darlings. (: we had
nick names. mine was vickiee. madness. i hate it
when melody and sherie called my name. how
whiny and draggy. (: haha. daphne
was my second joke. she was the \ last time me.
i still remembered my bowling alley experience
with ryan. how horrible. especially on our anniversary.
i tried t throw the ball. ha, i swinged hard and threw it.
i looked forward but no ball in sight. then i heard a
\ BLAM. ah, how embarrasing. the ball then
rolled t ryan's foot. everyone was looking okay. haha.
that was what happened t daphne. haha. ohh yes.
she had a wonderful name too. DAPREENEEE.

okay preeety preeny. =x haha. went t the food court.
watched them eat. haha. they were talking about the
weird cleaner they met yesterday. LOL. how funny.
he thinks he's a waiter in a restaurant. okay freaky.
i wasnt feeling good then. ah, felt like going home
but still, cannt afford t miss such fun with them. (:
went t arcade again. sherie, melody and hilda play`d
the street basketball. okay how wild. balls were
flying everywhere. haha. we then played daytona.
i was anxiously waiting for that very moment. (:
mr der and debrah came shortly before we start.

the first game. i screwed it up. i did the biggest
joke ever. besides frequent crashes with melody
and bumps, i went into the PIT SHOP.
how great. the un-adorable workers had my
not-so-damaged-car fixed. arghh. pfft. that obviously
made me the last. and also one lap slower. -.-"
haha. we had our second game. this time, things
began t lighten up. haha. amanda kept kissing my
butt okay. haha. i was last then i got first. (:
i think daytona with them is incredibly funn.

went t kfc t watch them eat. hilda never grows up.
she had a puny chicky meal. consisted for one
small drumy, one puny drink and mash potato.
haha. mr der almost lost her 3g phone can. haha.
a mum and kid found it after we called her phone.
(: good for her. haha.

went t bowl again. we slacked the whole day.
having no escape t play but balls t roll. =x
haha it was funny. this named me vicckkktiee.
something like that. weird name. haha.
i got high somehow. haha kicked off my shoe
and accidentally hit on sherie's back. ah,
everyone was looking. it flew great heights. =x
LOL. sorry sherie ! hmm, eslynn was far worst.
she squeezed hilda's boobs can. oww.
hilda poked deeply back. how disgusting. haha.
okay it was high. second game, i sucked.
didnt even get a pin down for millions of games.
i cannt bowl for nuts. (:

went home before i ended my game.
was so sick. i donnt know what was
going on. went t the bus stop. boarded
the bus. thought my ezlink card was there.
okay nothing got tapped. tried t find money.
thought it was 55 cents. the merciless
driver called me back and asked me how
much i put. wtf. cannot check himself ? -.-
then he say not enough. need 90 cents.
first time i heard of such thing. okay.
how humililated i was. everyone was looking.
i merely walked past them with some black
face. i was so pissed with myself for not
knowing what i was doing. i went t hunt for
my ezlink card. finee. i found it. wasted 40c.
while alighting, suddenly the bus jerked and
the guy next t me fell with his clutches right
behind me. he was in sucha awkward
position. i was so disappointed in myself
right from that moment. =/ sighh. i donnt know
why but i could have held him up and asked
if he's okay. i didnt. wth ? i ran home pulling
every possible hair on my head. i let myself
down. what made me hesitated. =/ SIGH.

okay. holiday sucks. ive got no allowance.
and money is quite a big issue in life.
not trying t say that its the biggest.
money isnt the root t all evil like
what pastor said. but still, i donnt
receive a single cent okay. only on
rare occasions. i saved them and
sparely use them on several days.
the building fund is stressing me out.
i hardly put a 50 for the past two months.
God, forgive me ? sighh. its pressurizing
t be a poor girl. having no cent in her pocket.
okay. movies are coming out. outings need
money. not forgetting funds and stuff. sighh.
if only i could be like everyone else,
having their monthly allowance and planning
it. i stopped holding allowance since last mid
year. i forgot how life was that time. =/ but
i clearly remember how it is now.

indifferent.
cold.
poor.
outkast.


fever is killing me alr.



many love.
peace out.

ah im so happy. (:
i feel like crying. LOL.
everyone made my day
today so pleasant.
it's gonna be a memorable
birthday i've ever had.

my parents alighted me opposite wisma.
walked t orchard mrt. met my dearest
boy and ziqing. (: we went t walk around.
ah, ziqing presented me with a metal belt.
i thought it was a necklaces. =x hahas.
went t seoul garden. started grabbing food.
i took loads of fishballs. (: then yong qiang
and chunting came. hahas it made me
confused when chunting said it was his
birthday. (: bluffer. LOL. okay.

ah my boy was the sweeeeetest. (:
he presented me a huge beautiful card.
ah, youure nobody till somebody lovees youu.
inside were all heart felt words. ah, so sweet.
i so wanna cry. (: thanks baby. i loveee youuu.

cooking the food were kinda funny with them
around. ryan acting retarded. =/ LOL. crazy.
they asked me t try cracking an egg. but i didnt
dare for the first time after cracking. yong qiang
asked me t crack again. ah, i cracked open.
freaked out when the jelly touched my hand and
just dropped everything into the soup. =x
it was funny. ryan was like, eh where is the
the other half of the shell ? LOL. i dropped
with the egg. i was holding only one. hahas.
ah, all their jokes were lame and funny. (:
brightened my day. hahas. ryan and ct went t
the gents for so so so long. yong qiang was like,
im going t the toilet t see what they are doing.
i go join them also. that was in chinese but
i understand. (: AH, so lame. i lovee their gay fun.

after so so so long of his disappearance, i had a
bad tummy ache lol. so decided t go t the ladies.
LOL. pakseh ziqing alone. ohh well. met yq on the
way, he said they werent inside. strange t me. ha.
i walked and walked, so happen t see this two
suspicious guys, so farmilar yet so suspicious.
aha, ryan and ct. i looked, smiled and walked.
then i suddenly recalled they were holding a box !
AH, A SURPRISE CAKE. i was like so
happy ? ah, went back. sang me birthday song
and cut the cake. the cake itself looked so sweet
t me. (: my favouritee swensen cake. maaan.

we started playing with dry ice. LOL. (:
ryan took it and dump it in the boiling pot.
AH, beautiful. all the smoke were
out. (: so niceeeeeee. hahas. okay. xD
we made sucha big mess there. left that
place. was outside seoul garden. those
three guys and my bro kept playing. mad.
LOL. we went t cine arcade. ah, met that
edison guy again. he kept looking LOL.
we played daytona. ah, so fun. (: then
played street fighter. hahas. fun fun fun.
left the place. ryan said the edison guy
kept asking his friend call me. LOL.
we hurry chao. (: this type of guys,
i classified them as despos.
ohh well, without them, the world is not
the world. (: LOL whatever. hahas.

one by one left. and in the end, left
ryan and my bro and me. (: we went t
a high class toy shop lol. at taka. okay.
i was amused by the toys there. totally
wonderful. (: hahas. went t the library t
sit around. i've got a photo of my brother
with his pants so high in the library. hahas.

(: went t meet bro alvin at breeks. we sat
there t wait for two others t come. (:
i was still so so so full. shared with my bro
fish and chips. hahas watching huiling and
my bro laugh was just so funny. crazy people.
(: played all the riddles and stuff. hahas.
they handed me our cell birthday card. AH
niceeee. (: annar and ameila's was the
funniest. LOL. hair pee birth day ?
right. hahas okay. talked and laughed.
suddenly, i heard a birthday song. ah.
i was like who had the same birthday as me.
then all the breeks staff came out and sang
t ME ?! ah, i was super shocked.
surprised too. ah so happy. it was for me ?
LOL. (: okay thanks guys. i got so many
surprise for the day. my heart's gonna burst.
LOVEEEES. (:


i wanna thank everyone
for making this fifteen birthday
ever so memorable and meaningful.
i loveee youu'all. (:


i lovee youu, ryan. (:
do miss me when im gone.
thanks for all youur efforts.
im touched by them.
<3

people people, going hong kong today.
will update when i get back.
thanks people. it's sad t see this day pass.

(:
i feel loved.

sunday.
service was good. (: ah, they celebrated
my birthday after service. this year, it's
kinda different. hahas i enjoyed myself.
they blinded folded me around church
t find my present and cake. LOL. security
even stopped us " excuse me, can youu
please let this girl go. youure not allowed
t blindfold her in church. " LOL. but i was
still blind folded. hahas. they finally put me
on a chair. i was grabbing joan since leona
escaped. hahas. they kept disturbing me.
then joan escaped cos my leg was itchy and
i went t scratch. ah, i was being badly bullied.
it was humiliating though. raphael the best. =x
he took a leave and poke my nose. AH.
so paiseh can. (: okay finally they led me t my
cake and present. when i un-fold myself, i was
found standing next t the water. how scary. (:
okay. they sang me birthday song. for that
moment, i call it bliss. i was happy
for that moment. i thank God for having people
t celebrate my birthday for me. i was fortunate.
it's not everyday of my life that i can receive all
this. (: aha, happy is the word. bliss is e moment.

okay got my cake. (: ah niceeee. its a whole cake !
happy happy ... (: okay then they gave me my present.
a nice top and a glittery pink belt. not forgetting the
beautiful bouquet of flowers. ah, it's nice t receive flowers
once in a while. especially on my birthday. cut the cake
and ate it. nice cake. ah, i feel so loved. it's sucha great
feeling i never really had in a year. yes yes.

...

monday.
birthday eve. met eslynn at my house. went 7-eleven.
went t tamp t take train. met mable at somerset. yupp.
eslynn got me necklaces and some daily reads. (:
thanks. went t heeren t walk. then daphne came. supposed
t go down t leave heeren, eslynn brought us t the service
lift. took us t some ulu place. LOL. went back t the same
place and took a proper escalator. hahas. went t cine.
they ate at pasta mania. daphne's pasta never shrink,
it grows like mad. her noodles kept growing and growing.
LOL. mable presented me her present. (: nice pink
bracelet. hahas. they were like, since eslynn gave pink
necklace, mable gave pink bracelet, daphne must give
pink earrings. LOL. i donnt want pink earrings lol. i'm
not all pink. (: unlike those kawaiii neeeh people. =x

went t take neoprints ! (: i shall scan photos tomorrow.
hahas kinda funny. mable vs eslynn and me. mable was
fighting for the dao photo then eslynn and me was fighting
for a more decent photo. LOL. in the end, mable
won la. i guess we made so much noise and the pens
could have broke la. ah, the dao photo was ugly. daphne
said i looked like some gang leader. then eslynn looked
like shes gonna cry. -.-" faints. went t rebirth. met a weird
guy there. kinda despo for friends. eslynn said okay. LOL.
ohh well. played arcade. ah so fun. we played that space
thing. hahas mable and i won. 13/9. eslynn daphne mable
were injured. hahas. eslynn was tyco. she got a free game
at daytona. LOL. she came in 40/40. then dap and mable
played house of the dead2. eslynn and i played daytona.
i won her for the first one. then i had an extra game. -.-"
hahas came in 20/40. ohh well. we went t play street
fighter. LOL. kinda funny. played against eslynn. i had a
afro man for my character. eslynn had a BEAR. -.-"
ah i won them. lol. so fun so fun. (:

went t check out the movies. ah, no chicken little.
so we watched home sweet home. horror movie. its kinda
scary cos of the effects. HA, daphne was the scared-iest.
(: she was practically on my seat alr. holding me and
cursing the monster LOL. how funny. ohh well. i was scared
too till i kinda crushed the kacham putei. =x we went t
fareast after that. eslynn left t meet her gf. mable daphne
kept complaining that i walk too fast. WHERE GOT. i guess
it's how slow they walk. hahas. we were supposed t go t shaw
house's mac cos birthday girl t be is hungry ! hahas we kept
talking and laughing until we missed the junction and wondered
where were we. mable anyhow point opposite, saying it's
fareast. -.-"

walked back t the junction. mable and i decided t walk in a
train position t collect free tissue. LOL. daphne called us
cheapskate. -.-" hahas. took the tissue and started laughing.
so funny. ohh well. went t eat at mac. i purposely chose t sit
in the middle of the middle. limelight lol. everyone was looking
la. hahas went t buy food. then ended up sitting elsewhere
since the table was too small. (: went pacific plaza then fareast.
we were all tired alr. LOL. they bought earstuds. yupppppp.

...

today.
it's my birthday ! ah, so happy.
woke up with 10 messages ? i feel happy.
(: people still remembered meeee.
messages came like all over the night.
weird hours i must say. LOL. (:
THANKS PEOPLE. LOVEEEEEES.
ah, my mum still nagged as usual. =/
nobody wished me happy birthday at home.
how great. :( sighhhh. nvm.
going out t meet my boy later. then heading
t town seoul garden ! (: dinner having with cell.
at breeks. hahas. i think i shall be a stuffed up
pig today. (:

i shall go pack my stuff now.
maple is unavaliable. -.-
LOVEEEES.

the way youu see youur life
shapes youur life.
how youu define life,
determines youur destiny.
the image of youur life,
is youur life metaphor.
youur unspoken life metaphor
influences youur life more than
youu realise. (:

...

things are on it's brighter side now.
went t amanda's house yesterday.
did her card at my boy's house. ah,
pfft. his maple character simply turns
me off. (: level 30 ?! fineeeeeee.
hahas. met guan sheng. joan told me
amanda found out about the surprise.
ah, stupid pizza man. come wrong time.
LOL. okay im in love with her dog. super
easy t bully. ah, its so tame. (: I WANT.
hahas. celebrated for her. she's kinda funny.
"ohh yes. i paid for the pizza." (:
had chicken wings and pizza. ah, i was so
hungry. thanks t bro alvin, extra three wings !
delicious lol. i was starving. hahas.
jackson not gentleman la. LOL. lousy waiter.

hmmm, amanda ameila and her parents left
for service. so we stayed and did a new surprise.
we went up t her room and decorate (:
i guess the most creative was using her
dirty clothes t dress cookie monster up.
ah, so cute. (: huiling was super high.
freaked me out. LOL. she kept laughing
and talking. machine gun. =x
brian told her "victoria and two little kids are here"
FAINTS. (: joan and liqian. huiling then pulled
me away. sister talk she said. and held my finger,
" hey. who are youu enagaged t ? "
faints. i was like, " FAINTS. donnt wanna talk t youu. "
hahas how funny. (: left her house at 8pm.
went home and ate laksa and goreng pisang. (:

i think i shall save up next year for an accostic guitar.
still working on songs. (: sheesh. got piano lesson
later. im deproving. =/ my fingers, donnt know what's
happening t them. hahas. ohh well.

birthday's in 3 days !
(: will be away on the 9th - 13th nov.
LOVES.

somehow, im feeling down.
i donnt know what's wrong with me.
i donnt think i'll ever be happy on
my birthday. sigh.
i feel like crap now. =/

surprise birthday sounds good.
i envy her.

...

went for churchwide bible study yesterday.
it was sure good. (: the tabenacle. hahas.
had a break at 940pm. ah, i thought it ended.
my mum sure nagged at me for not leaving.
ohh well. i felt kinda bad and guilty when
pastor kong said the prayer. it applied t me.
i hurt others, and i hurt myself. i didnt know
what t do. for what i know, i donnt feel good
in my heart. sigh. ARGH.

today.
malay's new year. i will be bored stiff at home.
maplystory is pretty empty for the first time. (:
okay i can hear weird chinese operas being
played in my neighbourhood. hmm, malay do
hear chinese operas ? =/ interesting.
tomorrow, cell will be heading t amanda's
house for a surprise birthday party. sigh. i donnt
know if i should turn up. i think it's gonna be
weird and awkward. i donnt feel belonged with
them anymore. i feel awkward and weird. it's
as if i never got t know them at all. i know whats
empty in my heart now. ohh shucks.
i hate this feeling of emptiness and loniness.
ah, but its all my fault that all this happens.
maybe i should just sleep and sleep and,
never wake up anymore. i donnt wanna recall a
thing. sigh. ohh look what i've done.

ah, i hate life now.
i just hate it. =/

hello. (: okay i apologise for my bitchy entry
before this. ohh well. its kinda sad t know
that my birthday is next week alr. and such
things are happening. i really donnt know
if its for the good or bad. sigh, never mind.

went out with nicholas and ryan yesterday.
ryan must be reluctantly came la ! =x hahas.
okay i was supposed t meet my dearest
girlfriend at pasir ris mrt at 420pm. ha, i
reached that at almost 5pm. sorry ! nvm, i
know he will forgive me. he lovee me la.
i told him about this site where it proves
that hell is real. they drilled a hole and heard
screams. i tell youu, nicholas wong is not
human. he just laughed. he donnt believe me
can. =/ pfft.

went t town. met ryan. asked him t convince
nicholas and he believed. what's this ? biased
over a guy. okay throughout, they were obsessed
with their guy chat. i was just laughing and listening.
went t fareast t walk. ate at kfc. GOSH, i accidentally
upskirt a girl who was on top walking. no wonder the
kfc had the curtains. but who knows why they lift it up.
nvm, im a girl. whats there t see. (: i must say people
nowadays have got weird sense of dressing. i mean,
they are posers la. they try too hard t dress like some
popstar. saw this totally GOTHIC couple. eeww. its
horrible black. i felt as though i met the corpse bride.
HA, those two guys kept laughing at how ah bengs
dress. okay i must say, they can dress like a girl or
guy, nobody can tell. ah, sissies.

passed by ck tang. nicholas told us about the guy
who stripped at singapore idol. we were like looking
for the guy and we spotted him ! okay hes really
outspoken. he asked ladies if they want t pluck
eyebrows. i was thinking if he had a liecense t do
his advertising her. hahas ryan and nicholas asked
me t go and ask him t pluck mine. crazy idea. (:
i think i should pluck his. he's was WAY thicker.

we walked t heeren. saw charmaine and that geraldine.
they kept staring la. =/ anyways, walked around la. then
went t cine. heard from ryan that someone jumped from
the 5th storey t the basement and died. ah, how gross.
okay here comes the exciting part. =x
we were walking towards tcc. nicholas and ryan saw that
halloweeen monster. i didnt. suddenly, the monster came
out with his weapon. AH, i screamed like mad then ran all
the way t ryan who was on the right. everyone was looking
la. i was super scared and embarassed. i cannt believe
i ran all the way t the right from the extreme left. =/ man,
the next victim was kinda funny. he scared the monster
instead of the other way round. LOL.

okay. we walked t plaza sing. man, i love the night feeling.
[ dejavu ! GOSH, i remembered typing this when my mum
came in and laugh saying my grandma asked liqiand and
joan if they are sis and bro. LOL. ] okay. we went ps. roam
at yamaha. sigh. i really want an accostic guitar !

today.
went t pasir ris park t meet joan and liqian.
was cycling my bro. by the time i reached, i
was completely shacked. LOL. (: cycled
and played around. i was slacking. we cycled
t my house and got food and drinks. played
for awhile, then they went back t return the
bike. ha, now they are at my house. donnt
ask me why im here.


(: im kinda excited for my birthday.
most of it is alr planned.
7th nov - my clique (:
8th nov - seoul garden with ryan,
yong qiang .. zq ct shawn elicia ?

sigh, i decided not t trouble my mum over
an acoustic guitar or a new rollarblades.
i shall wait for next year.

LOVES.