i'm bringing sexy back. i think youure special. nd i donnte`know how t act.
halloween party happening tonight. i'm oh-so-excited. haha. but really exhausted over the weekends.
friday, returned home at 130am. nd the following nights, i slept really late tooo. >))): -frowns.
ohwels. starting work sooooon. -sigh. i donnte`know whether t feel excited. HAHA. NEVERTHELESS, smile. (:
ok whatever. i cannt believe my birthday's next week. until i received those birthday cards.. i completely forgot about it nd .. it's my sweet sixteeeen! -urrghhh.
i want it t be special. just want t be a birthday, that will be kept in my love book.
who will make me feel loved.
1:00 PM
; fabulaso
my favourite ice creeeamm! <3
aha. had that with my dearest, ruby. ohh yeah. went on a date with her on friday before cellgroup.
push that button
Sunday, October 29
11:44 PM
; surprise surprise
i analysed my negative feelings for youu.. (thanks t nicole)
i donnt think i hate youu. but i definately feel utterly sorry for youu.
i see that youure trying t be like me, huh. thanks t nicole who enlightened me. all the years of competing over every possible thing ..
i hope youu will stop being jealous nd insecure. [: nd of course, get some original style code of youurs. rather than trying t impose something from me.
(if youure guilty, thats YOUU.) [: peace out.
..
OMG. OMG. so random, sam. but im soooo happpppy!
aha, sheeesh. sounds so fake, i cannt believe it. if its fake, i'm so gonna slaughter sam. ha. [:
p.s. steph, wanwan will come.. [: laura, vidvid will come tooo. HAHA.
Thursday, October 26
11:21 AM
; the friends i've found
i'd like t stop th clock, make time stand still..
tuesday - off the ground
yeah. this few pictures will help sum up my wonderful three days. for more photos, pleaase click on beautiful faces ; thanks.
today is the last day. nd literally, the last. it determines the last of all my four years in school.
the sad thing, i didnt make it t school. my knee's sucha chore. i couldnt move around much.. even broke out into tears during my dinner ytd. yeah i think i injured the muscles inside.. ohwels. >)):
for the past four years, it has been a great learning experience for me. i've got t learn alot of things in school, nd not forgetting, the friends i've found.
; the clique - the ones who coloured my secondary school days.
we've been through the bad times, nd also the good times together. although im not in good terms w some, still i'll never forget the good memories we've had. maybe youu guys have forgotten those memories, but i'll never let it leave my heart, neither the love book..
from the first time, we came together nd called ourselves a clique. we had fun together, being the class pranksters, the retarded neoprints, the sadness when we realised we were in different classes in sec 3, the get-together during recesses, being the school bullies, the after school fun, the chasing-with-the-brooms, the cam-whoring, the trend of hitting boobs, the night clubbing nd not forgetting.. the chalet.
i'll miss this clique. although it seems like the end of it, we might not see each other next year, or maybe we might. but i guess, things are alr too different now. still, i'd like t thank youu guys for the best memories i've ever had in my life.
i hope this friendship will not come t an end, i'll still love youu guys. [: <3 ; amanda . daphne . debrah . eslynn . hilda . laura . melody . rhoda . samantha . sherie . victoria .
yeap, those are the girls.
Tuesday, October 24
10:22 PM
; youure'so yesterday
my lovely girl, sam. [:
this is ice climbing [: it was sure cold.. more photos tmr [: ..
ytd was so fun. [: met sam, laura, matthew nd conrad. steph came after. hah. all th laughs at burger king.. lame jokes.. -grins.
went t vivo city. had so much fun. shopping around nd playing hah. nd i still remember sam's e funniest.
sam : my LOVEEE... ... -points at matt.
ok nd not forgetting our silly games. we played at th playground. hah. conrad was busy pushing us nd we were competing, who's th survival. i won la. :x HAHA but second round, steph held me nd we fell together. but th only difference is, she fell in a really awkward, unglam manner. >:x
went t the rooftop but it was too hot. so went t ezone nd started playing. laura's a bumper at daytona lol. keep bumping my butt. >:/ -honk! nd steph, sam nd i played some dumb hitting game. youu must have fast reaction lol. surprisingly, i won them. but my reaction time is kinda slow. >:DDD love them like crazy frog!
met my boy in the evening. we walked vivo again. but i was quite upset at first. both were so cold nd stuff. however, after toysRus.. aha. he surprised me. >:DD -hugs nd kisses <3!
..
today
it was fab. like one of my best days. -totally. [[[: i prayed like mad for the hot sun since guifang told me it was gonna have thunderstorms. nd tada, God answers prayers. >:DDD -thumbs up!
met ruby at bedok inter. headed t east coast park t meet the rest. didnt know there's 401 all along..
bro ian : maybe its a new bus, only t youu.
-.- yeah i got suan-ed for it. HAHA. anyways, i taught ruby how t skate! aha, im really happy about it. [: nd bro ian taught me a few stunts on the blades. yay, really happy.
went t get a drink nd relax at mac. after which, i followed bro ian t collect my bag nd ruby's. HAHA. ok guess what happened. >:/ -shy away
bro ian nd i planned t jump on the hump that was approaching us. lol. there were so many people, i started t panick when this skater came towards me. nd bro ian made through the hump while i crashed on my knees nd hands..
ok everyone looked so i hurried stood up nd gave a smile (hoping t cover everthing) nd hurried t bro ian's car. nd when i was about t take my bag, omgomg the wound bleed until it flowed down t my blades. ok i freaked out, nd shrieked. asked bro ian for help lol. i felt so weak at the sight of the deep red bloody wound. hah. nd ya, i really started shaking.
shaun nd zwing helped me clean up, nd bro ian helped me with th blades. nd he even went 7eleven t buy for me a box of plaster which i never even use later on. -geez, thanks!
wanted t play pool after. but realised it was $9.80 so decided t leave. bro ian sent cheryl nd guifang t bedok. then sent me home. hah.
nd the bath i had just now, was the worst ever.
>>i love e135! [: nd not forgetting, my loveleehhs laura, sam nd steph. this two days were fabulaso. >:DDD -gleeems
Sunday, October 22
5:54 PM
; jiggles giggles
omgomg. yet, again. i donnt like copycats.. donnt youu think it's alittle too obvious. i just donnt like those who struggle t find their own personailty in other's actions nd character. hah. -yuck.
arghh. try harder la.
thursday
went t safra yishun. had canopy walk nd ice climbing. canopy walk was crazy. >:/ my dearest partner, steph was super funny ok.
we started off as second. the first part, it was considered the easiest among the other three. steph kept screaming for me lol. nd it makes me shiver. especially when youure super scared of heights nd the person's scream is terrifying. >:DD i waited for her nd got t the second one.
the third one was embarassing. my rope got stuck nd suddenly, the ropes that i was holding on t started t tilt down, making me face the trees nd ground below. i started crying like a little kid ok.
me : -cries nd -whines.. steph : wait wait ! im coming ! me : -cries even more.. MUMMMY.. help.. steph : donnt cry! im coming alr ! me : -sniffs, i'm very scared.. -cries. crystal : OMG. i never cry, youu cry what! me : -looks opposite nd feeling so embarassed. steph : i'm here alr. donnt cry. come come.
nd steph saved my day. HAHA. ok it was embarassing ok. i was supposed t protect steph nd ended up crying lol. i donnte`know why but heights have been one of my greatest fears in life. >:/ -frown. ;thanks steph!
ohh, nd taitai liew called herself ego woman nd called me, emo. -.- i asked her why. she said because i cried. >:/ yeah yeah. she win.
[edited] ohhohh. tai-tai liew asked me t blog about our tokyo drift experience in the bus on the way back t school. >:DD ohh man, it was legend. we should have record it down. we kept singing nd singing, nd our fav part was, " i wonder if youu know.." yeah that part. crystal liew has a really cute singing voice. haha, youu should hear her out. [/edited]
went t do ice climbing. it rocks ok. they said i looked like i was going rollerblading hah. anyways, it was fun. im tempted go back there. [:
went home nd slept till six. went out with my bro t meet sis alice. we ate at suntec foodcourt. then she brought us t cafe cartel at raffles city. treated us so generously. oreo cheesecake, strawberry waffle ice cream, cappochino [sp] ... her boyfriend came t join us after. haha. he's handsome lol. talked till ten plus then went home [:
friday
went t changi museum. haha. super funny. we went into the dark prision cell, suddenly got voice, we screamed lol. then ran out of the door. the class was like outside, laughing nd looking at us like weirdos. >:DD
mdm kee brought yummy biscuits for us. [: went back t class for eng. slept the whole day lol. mrs yong woke me up, from time t time but she gave up after. nd ..
me : sorry ard, i'm very tired today. mrs yong : i know. the whole week alr. me : whole week tired meh ? mrs yong : yeah i saw youu. me : i also donnt know why.
went for cellgroup in the evening. met joan at yishun nd the rest at sembawang's mos burger.
cell was perfect. its been ages since i went for cell. >)): im glad im back. played some games before cell started. ended around ten plus. waited for bro ian till close t eleven. was entertaining myself by playing with joan some weird hand games until bro ian came inbetween us nd gave us some -.- look. hah.
bro ian sent me home, alighted benny t pasir ris interchange. [: haha. really fun t chat with bro ian.
saturday
service was great. [: went t airport t eat popeye's. it was delicious man. <3!>:DD
met rhoda nd peijin. yeah. hah so excited. organising cellgroup outing this tuesday. nd its at my love place, doing my favorite thing. >:DDD -gleems.
today
i donnt know what t do. went t cityhall t get some money. supposed t meet someone special. but we broke out into our pointless arguement in the morning. nd suddenly, i felt like a nobody t him. yeah yeah.
went t tanah merah. sat there for an hour or so. crying t myself, stoning nd thinking. i felt so lost. decided t return home. i never like displaying my sadness elsewhere, but my bedroom when there's only myself t cry t.
i wanted t go rollerblading. my only way t forget everything nd feel happy nd carefree. but i didnt know who t call.
life can be a burden sometimes. but it has alr been a chore for me. i've only the girl in the mirror t talk t nd turn t. im not some retarded lunatic who talks t herself. i have yet t have someone.. t share my problems nd sorrows w.
heh.
Thursday, October 19
11:39 PM
; dark clouds begone
i'm feeling quite miserable. im not hoping t feel emo or anything but i think i am feeling that way..
if only everything will be back t normal. youu know how much i hate changes.
i promise i'll blog about my day tmr when i get back. it has been a tiring yet fun day.
hugs & kisses, xoxo.
(i miss youu like craazaayee..)
Tuesday, October 17
11:51 PM
; maybe its time
met sam nd headed t sentosa. i went there, feeling prettehh good. tuck my hair in, with my high spirits. but it didnt stay for long.
; i donnte`wish t elaborate.
but there's always this question in my head. why. what's with that. i was really sad. tanning under the sun, with my besties. my brain was sending wild nd crazy messages t the left nd right of my head. >:/
sigh. maybe it's time t give up. maybe i held on too long. each time i held on t hope, i get thrown down without fail. maybe it's time t let go everything.
anyways, tanning nd playing with my best girlys were fab. we were left stranded on the beach, with another group of muscular underwear guys who kept calling us when we left.
i'm so glad t have them always with me, listening t me rant, listening t me bitch, hearing me sob. >:DD /that's what friends are for.
-thanks laura nd sam. <3>[[:
we went t beach station. bought our ice cream nd drinks. nd left. headed t vivo city. ate long john. cam-whoring, laughing, smiling. nd sam kept stealing sunflowers from the newly open restaurant. nd i heard, the PM is heading there. -laughs! hoho, samantha..
met up with the rest.. i didnt like the unfamiliar, cold, ignorant atmosphere. maybe a sweat shirt would help. yeah, if only it was warmth i felt.
; i know some were unhappy.
left soon after. met baby nd friend at paradiam. they were playing pool. nd i dozed off. super tired, pondering thoughts everywhere in my head.
we left for the cathay. omgomg. that desmond guy, he's super nice. ok, im touched. -grins. he actually got two tickets for ryan nd himself. but because of me (my fault!) , he went t get another ticket for himself. nd it wasnt even a seat next t us. he sat alone, somewhere infront. ok i felt so guilty. >))):
caught the flick, 'rob-b-hood'. omg i cried ok. nd the girl next t me, kept sniffing. makes me cry even more. HAHA. but the show really rocks man. i was so touched nd man, donnte`know la. i think ryan teared. >:x (pleaase donnt kill me) HAHA. went t get peelfresh, then left for home sweet home.
;it's so hard t let go. esp remembering the good memories we held with us.
11:33 PM
; the best girls
for more photos, pleaase click on beautiful faces. nd the album will be up. {: <-
Monday, October 16
10:57 PM
; peace be with youu
youu've changed. youure so different.
i wonder if i should be happy.. or not.
8:15 PM
; save me from all bitterness
PSI check : 113
phew, at least it went down. im starting t hate the haze.
anyways, shall start writing about my lovelehh holiday. -grins :DD
friday met my boy at tamp mall. ok i was shocked [!] yeah. totally. he was so emo ok. he surprised me with the contacts. but the black shirt nd pants.. ok. stupid nicholas wong. must be his fault, influence him until like that. -.- ubin boy.
in the evening, went home t get stuff for cellgroup bbq. [: love went t meet nicholas w. told youu, nic is his mistress. -pffffft. ohwels.
dad fetched me t hilda's house. had t delivery hilda's stuff t her door, personally. HAHA. then headed t east coast. got on my blades nd tried t find the pit. turned back t 7eleven since they called for more fire starters.
it was fun. seriously. th company i had, i got t know them better. shaun was high, nd yeah. hah. guifang, cheryl, amanda, jiahui nd wilson kept emo-ing at the secluded rocks by the beach. hah. i was feeling so so high. [:
bro ian was nicee. nd funny. ha, he taught me the t-break nd other little stunts w my blades. he's really nice. (:
while waiting for guifang nd jiahui t return, bro ian, shaun nd me had really 'corny' chat. haha all because of the sweet corn im gonna bring home.
left around 1130pm. shaun kinda asked his parents t send me home but bro ian could drive me home so yeah. [:
sent guifang t hougang nd yeah. the car ride was rather entertaining. bro ian helped me w my stuff up t my house. nd nights t my wonderful day.
im starting t love this cell. [: so much. >
saturday
snipped off my hair. ok. i told youu. i donnt like it. shuddap about my hair. >)): -frowns.
sunday
three weird things :
# three eurasian guys said hi t me when i was going down the escalator at tanah while they were going up. HAHA. not bad looking [:
# w my love in the train, this old eurasian man, smiled nd winked at me twice. despite the fact that his wife was hugging him. [: LOL!
# group of 'kawaii' guys kept talking about me. "i like her style.." nd they talked about my smarties, which i was eating. nd yeah, the friend stucked one of his friend's hand t me nd say bye. annoying brats. -rahhhh.
...
went for service. then headed t piano teacher's house. afterwhich, went t meet my love at tanah. supposed t go vivo city. -.-"
ended up at town. asked me why. i donnte`know. hah. had my fav wanton noodles at heeren. <3!>seldom he's being health conscious. -laughs!
sent him back t yishun. headed t great world city t find my aunt. she's working at zara. she bought many many clothes for my bro. -grrrhhh. had dinner. left for home.
today
was late for school. but didnt got caught so hid in the toilet. yeah yeah. nd when i went up, met ms yeong. she's lame. hah.
nd when i entered class, everyone started shouting nd whining. they kept asking me why i cut my hair. omg the whole day i was facing the same questions. i feel like copying nd paste but yeah. quite sad la. nd during recess, saw her ok. >:DD but they talked about my hair. omg. ok donnte`know if its good or bad. -frown.
i'm feeling so peeveeed.
was sleeping during english. der kept wacking me nd never fail t make me jump out of my sleep. its shocking nd sudden.
chinese was shitty. so yeah. played broken telephone t pass time nd got scolded. who cares about chinese. i told mrs chong i donnte` give a damn t chinese. hah.
after school, went t gym. it was fun -gleeeems! :DD saw benedict nd two other guys. hmmm he came t say hi. nd asked me some rubbish.
we left for subway. yeah yeah. nd played some prank on this MJC girl who thinks she's cute. haha super dumb ok. nd ohhohh! i was a happy kid ok. [: HAHA. sam said sth which make me heart fly. ohh man. so sweeet.
took bus home. nd damn, the bus broke down. -.-" got down nd waited for another bus when i realised benedict nd the guys were taking the same bus as me.
boarded the next same bus. went home with benedict.. nd i so donnt agree that sacians are boring. -.-"
we're so much more proper than some schools.
nd what a gay departure statement, " BYEE VEEEKKEEEE "
tmr sentosa. threee cheers! <3.>
12:24 AM
; check this out
check out my new haircut. honestly speaking, i donnte`like it.
HAHA. i will write more on my wonderfully spent days tmr. [:
lastly, i want youu t meet the handsome in my life. my brother la. >:DDD -gleems.
i've never felt so happy.. no words could express how blissful i feel. [:
the clique's chalet have been a marked in my love book.
something i'll never forget. no matter what.
...
day 1
met der at my house. cabbed down t tanah merah. met the rest nd took a chartered bus t the chalet. waited for an hour for laura nd sherie.
went t check in. chilled out infront of the teevee. went for swimming after. had dinner nd sparkling juice. i watched some weird show 'my left eye can see ghost' nd tears swell up in my eyes at the ending. talk about being too emotional.
hoho nd one of th highlights. self proclaimed clubbing. aha, off all lights nd blast the music. yeap as youu know, we can only dance in the dark. sherie nd debrah tried t arouse me. HAHA. i wished i video-ed it. fooling around nd dancing nd laughin. it was heaven..
slept with laura, hilda, rhoda. at wee hours, sherie nd the rest kept banging the door. i panicked cos i was sleeping ? -imagine that. hah. ok they played nd stayed up the whole night. could hear hilda's whistle la..
day 2
they were done with their mahjong by 7 plus in th mornin. hilda barged in the room nd screamed my name. it was nightmare for me. so i reluctantly woke up while hilda complain her bed hot nd her rubbish LOL.
went t wash up. went down in my night gown. HAHA. nd debrah asked laura, "who's that". i know. i sound like a hoarse man in the morning. lol. deb taught us mahjong. nutella was heaven. i finally know how t play. nd im addicted t it, badly.
the rest woke up. went for suntanning. kinda unsuccessful. so yeap. we went for bowling. i donnt really like bowling. haha. anyways, played arcade. space hockey's my favourite lol. laura nd i won der nd sam. super violent game.
went for bowling. HAHA. ok kinda funny. der got a very cute yet unique way t bowl. yeap. youu will know when youu see it. anyways, the usuals were meddling with all our names nd changing them t some lame 'inside' jokes. haha. they changed mine t 'peck peck' HAHA. ok wont elaborate on that but eversince they changed mine, i started hitting no pins.
yeap. changed back nd im back into the game. haha. melodick was always competing with me. she pro luhh. but won her after lol. 88, what a number. we kept screaming every min. ohh, i just love everyone. >[[:
went back t get ready for bbq. helped with the fire nd stuff. ate some food. played around. i had a really good time. piggy-back hilda t the playground. played around. then went back. played monkey. HAHA. super fun. i was so high. we got sweaty. took group photos nd went t bathe.
no clubbing that night since sherie's mummy was sleeping over. haha so we played mahjong nd watched teevee. they wanted t nap so they planned t wake up at 2am. went t our room, der slept with us. HAHA ok she went high. she even licked my mickey. lol. nd the funny faces she made. ohh man, it freaked laura out. so i told them, i'll watch them sleeping. i fell asleep myself. nd nobody woke up at 2am HAHA. -laughs!
day 3
had a refreshing sleep. went down t play mahjong. sherie's mum made toast for us. watched baby looney toons -<3!
i'm already missing everything. but there are more t come.
-throws kisses t the clique. MUAAHHHHH.
now, watch the videos. nd photos will be up above.
Monday, October 9
7:53 PM
; its just the beginning of life
i try t count all the fishes in the sea, nd all the sand that's lying on the beach. nd what about all those twinkle little stars. they make me wonder how great youu are.
cos' everytime i close my eyes, youu make all my troubles go no one else can make me feel this way Jesus, youu make my day! [:
..
ladies nd gentlemen,
N LEVELS ARE OVER. [:
>:DDDDDDD
ok. feel how overjoyed i was ? aha, i feel like a .. dodo bird. HAHA. ok i donnt know. -gleeems!
accounts paper was average. i tried my best so yeap. [: i feel like crap after paper. hurt nd .. fighting the tears from coming out. ay, donnt wanna mention anything.
anyways, talking about tears. i cried this morning. my dad was so unreasonable. i feel like shit. cried my way t school. nd left my shoe in the car. -.- ohh man.
just came back from a run with my bro. we ran t whitesands. he treated me bubble tea, nd we saw the haze. so we ran home. [: HAHA.
# tues-thurs > chalet. # friday > bbq. # saturday > haircut/seafood at malaysia. # sunday's church.
/////ohhman. im starting t love it. >:DDDD
; will youu try my sugar heart cookies ?
i hope things are turning for the better. im counting on the change of fate. over the days, i hope its a good opportunity.
nd i really hope my birthday will turn out good. i want it t be my best sixteen birthday. due t short of funds, i think the hotel have t be postponed t another party instead.
\i know youu want some vodka. nd try those love biscuits of mine.
peace out.
Saturday, October 7
9:48 PM
; if only
PSI check : 150
starlight cinema was great. [: worth the thirty dollars. hah. brought my hot pink mat. lol. the most alarming colour there.
watched toyko drift w my baby. he's so sweet ok. [: gosh, i love him. i came with an empty stomach. so went market place t buy some snacks while waiting for him t come.
we settled down on our mat. he went t buy overflowing snacks. yeah, my guy sure knows how t please his girl. [: happiness goes through my stomach. hah.
; i love youu, sugarplum.
the sky was really foggy nd hazy. look at the photo. hardly see the structure of any building. only visible was the suntec brightly-lit sign. :/
>>
today
went for tuition. was late hah. accounts kinda bore me alr. >): anyways, went t eat prata with laura nd mia. talking about stuff. super disappointed man. nd rather shocked by what i heard. yeah. >:/
went t church after. was feeling really stoned nd tired. yeap. i feel badly beaten up by th n'levels. was dozing off during service. nd suddenly, had the bad gastric. i even forgot if i have eaten anything today, when being asked. >:/ yeah.
there was this new girl who came t join us today. she told her friend t tell me :
abigail : she say youu look like sun ho. me : O.O -stoned. ah, ok.. which part. girl : eyes nd nose. me : er, ok.
not the first i've heard. BUT. i'm not very convinced, still. donnte`know why. haha [:
..
i donnte`know whether t look forward t it or not. ): everything's not even fine at all. everyone seems t act as if it's fine. ok maybe i'm the one.
but still. i feel like tearing everything apart. if only i could just close my eyes, nd wished i could get back t my happy memories.
i really feel destroyed. all beaten up nd bruised.
i wished everything could go back t the same old good times. just gimme a wish, mr genie.. >)): -frowns.
Friday, October 6
12:45 AM
; My Great Big Daddy God [:
two more papers t go!
havent been blogging. almost late for today's lit paper. physics made my day. bio screwed my day. so it became boring nd laid-back.
kinda excited for next week. the clique's chalet. [: the chicago bar with sis alice. the dates i get on weekends.
i feel weak nowadays. feel as though i've neglected my health for the exams. ay, but who cares.
cellgroup friends have been great. monday, was 6 hours of maths session with jiahui nd guifang at starbucks. tuesday, was 5 hours of physics with cheryl at starbucks. nd 2 hours of physics at the school night class. today, was 4 hours of maths with guifang at starbucks. hah. ; this better be good.
nd all through the starbucks days, chocolate danish was my hot favourite. hah, nd bryan was working today. he kept suan-ing me ok. what a friend. hah, nd he volunteers t teach me maths. HAH.
me : -went t take paper tissue. bryan : psst! me : -turns. what ? bryan : why youu order so fast! me : why cannot. bryan : i can give youu discount what. me : er. ok. nvm. haha. bryan : -points. wanna buy again ? :p me : -.-" NO.
my days have been great yet somehow empty in another sense. but i've drawn closer t God. [: i'm really happy when i know that God's with me every sec, even if people let me down or abandon me. -grins.
[edited] ohhohh. nd whenever im out with laura nd steph. we always have t run after buses. it has been three days since we ran after many. -laughs. nd yes, we always see those teevee stars. interesting huh. [: [/edited]
...
suddenly, the song 'miss you like crazy' came on my mp3. it brought back great happy everlasting memories i kept. but now, everything seemed t be washed away by the thundering overpowering tsunami. i even remembered the photos taken. t even pixel-ise the moment.
