BEAUTIFIED PRINCESS x. FEAT. Miss Beauty Queen.

Friday, February 16

2:30 AM

; king nd queen

i miss you, king.

anyways;
i realised i can just erase
th guideboook t th princess's
heart. haha how stupid it sounds.

shall update about th jap girls.
picked them up from school.
honestly, i had no mood t host
anyone at my house haha. ohwels.
was really scared nd nervous lol.
wanted t escape from it but arghh.
so yeah got my girls, harunka nd sakiko.
(: cute girls nd really exciting nd
enthusiastic. der nd i flagged cab
for an hour plus. how annoying. lol.

ryan was alr at my house for 30 min.
guess he had fun flirting w my mum.
;honestly, when i first saw you,
i didnt feel single or different at all.
i'm too used being your baby girl. hah.
seeing you, makes me a happy girl! (:

haha. brought th jap girls home. they
are so cute. bathed nd went t changi
village. bought for them laksa, horfun,
goreng pisang nd pumpkin cake. ryan
bought them 4 different type of drinks.
grass jelly, coconut, sugarcane & lime.
they were so amused by everything.
especially with th coconut flesh nd
grass jelly. they thought th jelly were
worms! omg, how cute (:

all their reactions were just so funny.
nd cute. they were so amusing. hah.
had fun. headed t jacob's restaurant
t find der nd her girls. haha. my girls
were so egg-cited t see them lol. they
started screaming nd saying hi nd stuff.
afterwhich, my mum gave us car-ride.
th old hospital t th back of airport. they
saw this big plane landing nd started
screaming lol. they were amused by mrt
too. haha. nd even a lorry with workers
behind LOL. too cute t resist. >:D

ryan showed them magic lol. ughh.
hes kawaii toooo. aha. he stayed
for awhile, then walked him down.

;i really wished i stayed at th 100th
storey. then th moment in th lift would
have lasted longer.. better memory t keep.
but ohwels, haha. its alright (: something
better than nothing. hugs.

he met up w nicholas nd bid farewell.
went home, th jap girls were so nice.
they gave me a traditional jap doll.
nd springwater from japan. nd even
biore wipes from japan. lol. nd they
gave me so many leaflets t show me
nd explain t me about japan nd their
school. haha. i showed them about my
life too. haha had good time exchanging
cultural. until they were tired. haha.
they slept at 1am. haha i slept at 215am.
11 msn chats, either wishing happy vday
or asking about jap girls haha.

this morning, mum sent us t school.
i promise you, my mum almost cried.
her eyes were all red nd cheeks flushed.
lol. so funny. emotional like me. haha.
yeah, i hugged them goodbye nd almost
cried too. i will miss them, dearly.
they made my vday.. great experience.

had learning journey. how boring.
i wasnt feeling well. ohwels.
&&i hate randomly crying out of
nowhere. haha but that was in
th bus. time t stay strong! (:
though tears just had t come out..

went home after that. bathed
nd changed. nd suddenly missing
you so so badly. ughhh, poor me. lol.
anyways, went t expo. met peck li
nd jessica for dinner. had my jackfruit
sago dessert. they were so crappy lol.
went for service. nd there's no regrets.

i personally feel, from now..
i'm stronger already.
God works miracles. i dont feel
that miserable anymore.. nd
ay, no words can describe.
it seems like one month or week has
passed alr. but its merely just two days.
how weird. hmmmm. >:/

oh, how i wanted t walk away during
sermon. pastor said it was about
relationships. ugh, there was this
sick feeling inside. but i thought, hey..
this is not coincidental but God-incidental.
haha. so i reluctantly listened. & suddenly,
i had t weird chills nd i started shivering
nd muscles around me kept shaking at
th end of sermon. nd i kinda expected an
alter call cos this always happen t me.

&!yes, i raised up my hand nd went down.
i hesitated at first but th moment i left
my seat, i couldnt stop crying. had alter
call. nobody was actually there t lay hand
on me.. nd suddenly, someone laid hand
on me nd i recognized his voice, bro darren.
yeap. th moment he prayed for me for only
one thing, i fell. nd th thing is, i realised
i fell directly on another person below. >:/

insecurity was all he prayed for..
i couldnt stop crying since then.
but this time, i didnt feel miserable.
i kept thinking why insecurity since
im alr single nd stuff. nd it hit my head.
i remember telling honey, how insecure
nd scared i was t leave my house t go
out or come school.. having a new status.
yeah. service was definately God's calling.

but no doubt,
i'm staying strong here! (:
though im still welcoming
you back with open arms..
hah. i love youu, always!
never think i might not want
you back, cos infact, i really
really want you back nd i
cant wait. -smiles (:

<3
thank God for his healing.
nd alice bought me this book.
very touched. healing th broken-
hearted by joyce meyer. all this
is gonna make me a strong vicky.
then i know, i will be very very
very attractive t *you, king! >:D

no more crying randomly in class.
no more tearing on buses.
no more crying while bathing.
no more crying while looking
into th mirror.. (:
at least i will try not.
staying strong..
but also, wanting you back.

haha. anyways. i'm always looking
at th bright side of life. -grins.
there's a pot of gold at th end of
th rainbow. now its only th beginning.

goodnights.
<3! hugs nd kisses