fugly ;
&.the appearance might be nice.
the inside's rotten ;*

school's tiring.
haha. did i mentioned that two days
ago, ryan woke me up from my 10 min
of beautiful sleep at 1.15am. LOL.
i cried after that okay. so irritated. haha.
OHWELS. quite an experience.
it has been years since i did that. =x

yesterday.
went t church. i overslept.
guansheng best. he overslept till 11pm.
okay. (: service was perfect. i miss church.
i admit i have been drifting away.
cell's empty for me. i donnt fit anywhere.
i need t bring my own friends t have my fun.

ANYWAYS. i really wonder why expo's so
cheapskate. even another atm machine
also donnt wanna put. cannt they put one
at the seveneleven or something ? LOL.
so stupid pleaase. it was a long walk luhh.
nd i had major cramps. i was so sleepy too.

supposed t meet bro alvin for makeup cell.
but he's late. so we bought food nd went
for prayer meeting. okay was late too.
ohwels. only huifang bro alvin nd myself.
it was good luhh. except that fact that i
was really really very very tired nd lethargic.
but never lethargic for God. take that out.
haha. i think prayer meeting had really
strengthened me nd my spiritual life.
i felt like a road once blocked with rocks
was set free. man, i feel so good. (:

went tamp with ryan.
haha. shawn joined us.
okay he's fun t hangout with.
always bullying me. (:
he said i had a brain of a 1.4 yearold.
okay. went toysRus t play.
ryan was chased by a little boy.
((:


school's tiring today.
forced t wake up.
fought for toilet LOL.
okay. nothing much for the day.
just so boring nd tiring. but ohwels.
im burnt nd im peeling alr. (:
haha. went bedok mac with daphne.
had t chiong my piano homework.
left for piano lesson after.


*/i think there's something more,
life's worth living for.
who knows what could happen.
do what you do,
just keep on laughing.
one thing's true,
there's always a brand new day
i'm gonna live today like it's my last day.

how do youu always have an opinion.
nd how do youu always find the
best way t compromise.
we donn't need t have a reason.
we're just wasting time.'___>


some confuses me.
sincere or sarcasm.
truth or lies.
youu're deceiving me.
pleaase reveal the truth.


im sorry. all i feel is sarcasm.
maybe youu're sincere nd truthful,
but maybe not everyone is.
youu might not know but i guess
i know what's going on.

one less, it's never whole.
but if relationships are better that way,
go for it. its never nice t have darkness
kept inside relationships, behind a wall.

it might have been sudden t some.
but i saw it coming. i really did.
it's like backslidding from church.
a person doesnt backslide suddenly.
it happens days, weeks, months back.
im not trying t say we left long ago.
i really did enjoy those times back then.
i hate t let it go.
not like i never thought about anything.
but its all deceiving.
i cannt make up my mind.
what i see are all sarcasm.
all ignorance.
all plastics.


..

i donnt know where's this going.
gossips nd sarcasm are turn offs.
one moment, i hear sarcasm.
next moment, i see humbility.
could it be the influence ?
or is it a prank youu're playing.

some say we're thoughtless.
ever gave a thought too.
i spared many.
i cannt spare no more.
some think we're heartless.

im sorry.
but it's always a give or take.
i consumed many nd its enough.
there's always a limit for everything.
a limit for the jokes we give.
a limit for the pranks we play.
once it surpasses the line,
tolerance is all i had.
there's a time t play.
nd always, maybe we arent aware.
but the words we use,
the pranks we play,
might have hurt someone unconsiously.

we might have gone too high nd hyper.
but always back t the fact,
some might think its immature.
ay, i cannt think of anymore t comment.
school's screwed. life's screwed too.
i'll hope for the better.
better for youu nd i, for everyone.