wednesday.
went novena square with my boy. i was supposingly late,
but someone ard, donnt know disappear where. ha, walked
around till his nose bleed LOL. i guess he saw my reflection =x
haha, went t toys'R us t play. then headed t town. went plaza
sing. ate at long john's. had some heart t heart talk. mm, it
was so serious till i accidentally raised my hand t tell him
something. laughed like mad ? =/ how embarrassing. went t
heeeren and cine. yupp was tired alr. so headed home.
i sent him home, how gentlemen of me. (:

thursday.
went t my boy's house with my brother. okay i was so frustrated.
waited almost two hours. i was feeling so nauseous still, ohh well.
watched initial D while my bro played ps2. mm, went t play bball
after that. okay i guess they arent used t my bro's and my roughness.
kept complaining. complain kings. =x had dinner at his place then
went arcade. played that para thingy ? its embarrasing and a wastee
of money. ohh well, i learnt my lesson - i cannt jump and dance. (:
had fun though.

friday.
donnt wanna elaborate much about school but i did really
badly for my exams. two retainees in class. i donnt wanna
be one of them. =/ sigh, pray for me please. sometimes, i
really donnt know if God is ever there. i feel so tired and
weak now. i prayed, attend cg, attend service but my studies
donnt seem better. i prayed for it, does God ever hear and
answer my prayers ? im losing hope. my faith is dying.
i quit going cg, inface i dread going t cell. it was never the same.
i was on fire for everything, now im like shit. a piece of dead numb
shit. im losing the fire. i lost it, have i lost the battle ?

...

went t sherie's house in the evening. met daphne and mr der at my
house. mr der was super early i must say. =x we walked t eslynn's
house. LOL. i led them t the wrong way. sorry ! accidents do happen
youu know. (: mr der kept stepping on my slipper. and my big toe was
swelling alr. LOL. she kept scaring us la. it was so creepy and t add on,
there was a wake there too. met eslynn then went t her house t use the
toilet then blow dry our pesiration. went t wait for bus 24. took it t sherie's house.
siew cheng and laura was there alr.

after everyone arrived, took photos photos and more photos (:
i loveee them ! had our barbeque food. thanks t her mum who's
doing the cooking. (: i love the sausages LOL. they kept telling us
the size of the sausage LOL. 3 inches ? HA, i told them i want a
keyboard long sausage lol. debrah said donnt have but she passed
me this big and juicy one. LOL. =x girls fun. we went t the playground
and play the see-saw. deprived childhood LOL.
we played wild see-saw okay. it was so wild and scary.
played ice and water. GOSH, debrah is scary la. like some sadako
chasing youu. ha, played till everyone was all sweaty and smelly.
had our girls gossip up at the playground. debrah and sherie and hilda
was gross. i said i couldnt breathe. sherie said my bra too tight ?
debrah continued on the fake phone call. -.- donnt wanna elaborate
what they say. LOL. its censored. yimin came, eslynn ard, try t sneak
her in lol. we're smart. reveal yimin LOL. played zero point. everyone
started t get tired. yup. everyone started t talk on the phone. (:
i missed my boy. went t the poolside t camp LOL. we looked like campers.
i was so sleepy and tired alr lol.
called my dad then went home. fetched siew cheng home then eslynn called me.
then picked eslynn and her gf at the bus stop then fetched them home. ohh well.
i still feel empty. =/

i always wanted youur presence.
i always longed for youu.
its been over a year.
that every day i needed youu,
youu didnt seem t be there.
do youu even hear my prayer ?
do youu even answer them ?

i cannt retain.
i donnt wanna retain.
please help me.